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[00:01:36] Protector Guard plan for you. Hey and welcome to Fall Asleep with Henrik.

[00:01:45] I'm Henrik, and you're sleepy. And it is what it is. What happens, happens. And right now,

[00:02:01] there's nothing we can do. Here we go. Okay, hi. How are you? You're sleepy, and I'm

[00:02:17] Henrik. And you've done your job. It's over for the day, for you or whatever the time is when you

[00:02:28] listen. Of course there's a lot of things that you can do. You can run around like you own the place.

[00:02:38] I mean the world. And in a sense you do. I mean you own the world, at least your own.

[00:02:48] I'm sorry for being so foggy, so early in the podcast. Okay, so if you're new here, this is a

[00:02:55] sleeping podcast. I don't have a script. I don't read from a paper or an electronic device.

[00:03:04] I sit in my studio which is a container that's very practically put in my yard,

[00:03:15] and I talk into a microphone. I improvise. And the purpose of this is to help you fall asleep,

[00:03:24] to drift away and fall asleep. So this is why I'm here. And you'll have to put up with my broken

[00:03:32] English and my broken personality. And you don't have to listen. I mean that. That's not any

[00:03:47] hypocrisy from my end. I mean it. You don't have to listen to this. You can just press play

[00:03:55] and leave me be. Of course if you want to listen to me, that's fine too. You can do whatever you

[00:04:05] want with my voice. Fall asleep with Henrik is the English version of my very established podcast

[00:04:17] in Sweden called Somna med Henrik. Fall asleep with Henrik. I have been doing that in Sweden

[00:04:28] since 2018. And that's now my whole occupation. I am really an actor. My line of work is acting.

[00:04:43] But over the years, I've turned more and more into making my own things

[00:04:49] into reality. So I write books and I write plays and operas. And I create stuff on social media and

[00:05:04] YouTube. And of course podcasts. So my whole salary, if you can call it that, comes from

[00:05:11] this Swedish version of this podcast Somna med Henrik. And I've been thinking about creating

[00:05:23] something for the English speaking market for many years. I very early on, I started experimenting

[00:05:32] with artificial intelligence and I created two podcasts. One very early on way before chat,

[00:05:42] GBT and other stuff. I started with a podcast called the AI way to drift astray.

[00:05:48] You can still listen to this, but it's so dated now when the technology has reached further.

[00:05:58] That was my first English speaking podcast. And then I created another one with a speech

[00:06:03] synthesis of my own voice and that was called sleep chamber. That's also a sleep podcast.

[00:06:16] But they never flew. They didn't get too far. And then I came up with the idea of maybe just

[00:06:27] skipping the AI altogether and just do what I do in Swedish, but instead in English.

[00:06:36] And I'm sorry for if you're an old listener. If you have listened to previous episodes,

[00:06:45] I'm sorry, but early in this podcast journey, I need to tell new listeners what this is.

[00:06:55] So the only purpose really is just relax and fall asleep or drift away or get distracted.

[00:07:06] And I'm not going to try to bore you, even though that will probably be the effect of this

[00:07:19] because I don't have a script and there's a lot of thought processes.

[00:07:26] Thought processes. Do you say that? No, you say thought possums. That's possums made out of

[00:07:36] thoughts. Imagine walking through the forest, the dense thick forests that is so common wherever you live.

[00:07:50] I don't know. I guess there are forests where you live. I don't know. This is an international

[00:07:56] aimed podcast. So I guess you could be anywhere really. But imagine walking through

[00:08:05] one of the forests where you live and then there's this possum made out of your own thoughts

[00:08:12] just popping up and saying, how do you do? Would you like to accompany me for a stroll

[00:08:21] down memory lane and then you just give in, you know.

[00:08:26] So there you had an example of where this will lead eventually. I have this very fluffy idea about

[00:08:44] more and more as the episode progresses. Tune into this some sort of a dreamlike

[00:08:52] thing where my words doesn't really mean any sense, make any sense and my

[00:09:02] themes and sentences become fragmented. I think that

[00:09:18] that is what early on made my Swedish podcast, Take Flight. So I'm not an expert in sleep.

[00:09:28] But I believe in distraction and I believe in comfort and the feeling of familiarity. And I

[00:09:38] will talk like this for the whole podcast. Sometimes I will laugh and sometimes I will just be quiet

[00:09:45] for a while. This is non-content. I don't have any illusions that you should, you know,

[00:09:57] sit straight up in bed and just taking notes, you know. Because I won't say anything that really

[00:10:03] moves your world unless I do and then that's an accident. I don't think ahead.

[00:10:13] So therefore if I say anything that you feel like that shouldn't be in a sleep podcast,

[00:10:20] I guess that's an occupational hazard. I guess that's a workplace accident in a way.

[00:10:29] You can't avoid it altogether because my aimed audience is big and I'm just one guy,

[00:10:39] one Swedish guy called Henrik in Stockholm, Sweden. I'm fairly short.

[00:10:51] I'm 1.72 centimeters above ground level, ground level being my feet. I am blonde,

[00:11:07] blonde, go figure. And I have blue eyes, go figure the figurines, figurines and I make

[00:11:19] up words like the word McGreel-e-rabbrin spritzed which is a made up word I just came up with

[00:11:27] which really means nothing unless you like a Gribrilo-rin spritzed. Then you know what that is,

[00:11:37] you know, am I right? Okay so it's getting weird a bit ahead of time. I don't know what I'm going

[00:11:49] to talk about today. I'm staring right now at a curtain that is hanging in front of my door

[00:12:00] into my container studio. It's actually a very, very good investment that I did a few years back.

[00:12:11] It was when COVID hit, I had been doing my podcasting for two years and I couldn't make

[00:12:20] a living out of it just yet. I still needed to do some acting work so I was at this kids show

[00:12:30] on television and called Bully Bumpa in Swedish which is a famous umbrella term for Swedish state

[00:12:46] television children programs. So I was dressed as a dragon. Okay this sounds really weird in

[00:12:56] English. I was dressed as a dragon which and the dragon carried sort of the symbol for the whole

[00:13:07] umbrella term Bully Bumpa. You could say that the dragon was the logo for the whole

[00:13:16] children television brand of the Swedish state television. So I was the dragon,

[00:13:24] I was dressed in this huge costume and it was like, I don't know about Celsius, I don't know about

[00:13:34] Fahrenheit but it was like 40 degrees Celsius inside of the costume. So I was bathed in sweat

[00:13:46] and I was very unhappy not because of the job mainly although it wasn't very fun because

[00:13:56] I mean you could, anyone could do that. That's my feeling at that point. Now since then I think

[00:14:04] my view on that has changed. The woman who does this dragon now really does a much better job

[00:14:14] than I did. It is an art form to perform in you know this big furry costumes. It's very

[00:14:25] demanding but not in a sense that acting is demanding you know. It's because you don't have a face

[00:14:35] to signal stuff with. You don't have any exposed limbs you know the hands and

[00:14:41] feet and you don't have anything to show except this furry shield. So everything you do becomes

[00:14:54] very shielded and you need to rely on other stuff to communicate with the audience. But for me that was

[00:15:11] it wasn't a very fun job. I was at this point in my life where I drank too much I think

[00:15:22] and it wasn't like I was this drunk guy on a bench in a park somewhere.

[00:15:34] I'm not sure if that's where I'd ended up if I'd continued my life as it looked then but it's

[00:15:44] probably true I would have been sick from my way of life. That's my view at this point anyway

[00:15:56] and I was unhappy in my relationship. We were both unhappy and I had recently become a father

[00:16:08] and I thought that was very hard and I felt lost you know and I started to feel bitter.

[00:16:18] As an actor you have these big dreams in the beginning. You want to be a star somewhere.

[00:16:28] You want to belong to something meaningful and then you end up in this rat race of just taking

[00:16:36] roles just for it to get paid you know. So you say yes to stuff like being inside of a dragon.

[00:16:47] I used to joke that me and what's his name that this actor this American actor English actor maybe

[00:16:55] Benedict Cumberbatch. I used to joke that me as the dragon of Bully Bumpa and Benedict Cumberbatch

[00:17:03] who made the voice for the dragon Smog in The Hobbit movie that we were the same so that I would

[00:17:11] write to him and say that we're actually colleagues do you have any pointers like do you

[00:17:18] would you want to look at this Swedish children's television program and and just tell me what

[00:17:23] you think I'm doing right and Bully Bumpa the Bully Bumpa dragon is he's not this cruel treasure

[00:17:33] collecting older than life smart ass like Smog. He's more of a jolly undefined very boring character

[00:17:48] that doesn't really have any preferences or any hobbies or well yes the Bully Bumpa dragon liked

[00:18:04] one thing he liked the dragon juice which is a strange way of telling a story about drug abuse

[00:18:13] because he was sort of addicted to dragon juice

[00:18:17] and but that wasn't mentioned you know it wasn't a problematic dependency he was just

[00:18:26] he just liked it a lot and everybody else hated it so it was more for the Bully Bumpa dragon

[00:18:35] anyway meanwhile I was doing my Swedish podcast Somnambuhandrik I was doing it

[00:18:43] as a hobby and I had a patreon site where I got some contribution from my listeners they were

[00:18:54] paying a bit each month to receive extra episodes

[00:19:00] and I wasn't commercially commercially commercially sponsored at that time

[00:19:08] and so I earned like 500 dollars each month from my podcasting and then I was

[00:19:26] more and more tired I got more and more tired of my podcasting now all of my television gigs

[00:19:36] and I also thought that being in that environment got more and more frustrating

[00:19:44] and I felt lonely and I felt unseen in that place and I was locked into a drugging costume so

[00:20:03] I tended to spend more and more time podcasting although I didn't earn any made made any money

[00:20:09] from it and then covid hit and at that time we didn't know in Sweden we kept our children in

[00:20:17] school during the whole pandemic that was a decision from our health institute and but in the beginning

[00:20:26] we didn't know so other countries started to homeschool their children and I didn't know

[00:20:33] whether or not I could go to work because my girlfriend she worked like a regular job

[00:20:43] and she also worked as a personal trainer so she was away a lot and I had this TV gig

[00:20:52] and then there was this podcasting that took up more and more of my time

[00:20:59] so at that time I had a studio in the city which I rented

[00:21:04] and I started to think that maybe our daughter Harriet she needs to be home

[00:21:12] during the days now and then someone's got to be home she can't be home alone I can't just

[00:21:19] go to my studio every day except when I'm at the television network house okay that was

[00:21:31] really bad English I'm I apologize sometimes my vocabulary just stops does it happen to you if

[00:21:41] you listen if you who listen sleepy if you if you're not natively English in any way

[00:21:50] if English is not your language your first language

[00:21:55] which I know there are a few of you who who don't have English as your first language

[00:22:01] do you does this happen to you too like when you

[00:22:09] you feel it's going great when you speak English it's just you get into the flow

[00:22:15] you know and and then the words just one word starts with the previous word stopped

[00:22:26] and then you just yeah you get into the the mojo and then the gas just stops and you

[00:22:35] you say stuff like the television network house which is I don't know what language

[00:22:43] that is okay so I took all my equipment home and I

[00:22:54] moved from the studio in the city I gave that up it was a small room in an old in an old building

[00:23:06] in the southern parts of the inner city of Stockholm and at first I had this

[00:23:15] homemade solution where I had this little box where I put my head and in the box there was

[00:23:22] a microphone and I sat there and it was a very warm summer the summer of 2020 and I sat there

[00:23:30] sweating like a I was sweating like someone who sweats a lot to put it mildly and

[00:23:39] I did my all my podcasting from there all my other actor gigs they just cancelled and at the same time

[00:23:52] I just I got offered to this is a story I come I returned to again and again but

[00:24:00] the producers at this kids show uh in television in the in this TV show for children

[00:24:11] they asked me suddenly I've been doing this for six years one way or another

[00:24:17] then they asked me to do an audition for the same role that I was doing

[00:24:24] and I gathered that they wanted to get rid of me but they didn't have the guts to just say that to me

[00:24:31] like you don't fit here anymore please go it's apparent that you don't like this go I mean

[00:24:38] I would have appreciated that that would have been would have been honest you know but they said

[00:24:43] that they wanted to rethink the whole concept and that was true they wanted to rethink the

[00:24:50] whole concept but they knew me like we've been worked we were like colleagues you know

[00:24:59] but they they said it was a decision higher up and stuff and I really despise that kind of corporate

[00:25:07] blame this disposition what do you call it when you put decisions on someone else

[00:25:19] you say this is a decision higher up I don't know either I can't you know it's bullshit sorry if

[00:25:25] I'm using the word bullshit in this very sleep inducing podcast so then I said I won't do an

[00:25:36] audition and then they said then you can't continue and that was of course what they wanted

[00:25:42] all along and so I quit my job or I got fired or I don't know no I my contract didn't renew

[00:25:53] and then all I had was the podcast

[00:25:58] and I at that time I also began to record audiobooks because that was a market that

[00:26:09] was booming at that time because people were home a lot listening to stuff

[00:26:16] so I recorded audiobooks for a company a publisher and that was how I made it through the first

[00:26:26] part of 2020 this is a long story and I know where it's headed because I started talking

[00:26:35] about my studio and I guess if you're still listening if you're if you haven't fallen

[00:26:40] asleep yet I guess you're waiting for me to come to a point I have I have I hate to disappoint you

[00:26:48] but there is no point here eventually I will maybe talk about how I got to end up in this studio

[00:26:59] but it's not necessarily something that will happen by the way actually the thing that my

[00:27:10] vocabulary in English sometimes just comes to a halt it's actually good I think for this format

[00:27:21] because that forces me to pause that's something I have an issue with in Swedish because I could

[00:27:33] without any issues whatsoever just talk like very rapidly for a very extended period of time

[00:27:42] and right now up in the roof above me in my beautifully decorated studio there is this

[00:27:51] small spider climb bin over the cloth that is my roof I'm really frustrating with these spiders

[00:28:05] if you're afraid of spiders I'm sorry well this podcast is this stuff like this happens so try and

[00:28:15] take a deep breath and just accept the fact that it is what it is you know I won't talk about

[00:28:23] spiders for the remaining part of the episode I just I'm just going to tell you about

[00:28:28] the problem I have with them because one of my earliest episodes of the Swedish version some

[00:28:35] number Henrik I interviewed one of those spiders it was a fictional interview

[00:28:45] mind you I can't with good conscious interview a spider I mean that would be such a

[00:28:53] a break of trust I guess the spiders trust us not to interview them because you could you know

[00:29:03] they're everywhere so you could just walk up to one and just start asking questions but we don't

[00:29:08] because we have this unspoken deal with them you don't talk to us we don't talk to you

[00:29:16] I mean I would be really upset if a spider just came up to me and said like hey what are you

[00:29:21] doing with this New York accent which I'm not gonna make an attempt of impersonating but it's

[00:29:33] just sliding up to me on a skateboard and saying like hey what are you doing like I'm walking here

[00:29:41] like I would be very I would be some sort of troubled I would be somewhat troubled by the nature

[00:29:55] and the nature of reality what is more what is more scary meeting an actual lion or meeting a

[00:30:04] cartoon lion on the street the answer is of course the most scary thing would be to meet

[00:30:11] a cartoon lion because it's it questions the very fabric of reality as you've come to know it so

[00:30:21] behind my house I live next to a vast forest outside Stockholm Sweden I live in a house

[00:30:32] with my girlfriend and our daughter my girlfriend's name is Nina and my daughter's name is Harriet

[00:30:38] Harriet recently gave me permission to use her name her real name I haven't been

[00:30:47] using it before this well in the beginning of the podcast in Sweden I did because then

[00:30:54] I never thought that it would grow to be this huge thing for me but since then I've been

[00:31:04] keeping a lid on because I want to she doesn't want to be in my videos so because she's private

[00:31:16] and I don't want to force anything upon her but she's she recently said that it's okay if I

[00:31:24] tell my listeners that my daughter's name is Harriet so we live here and in the forest just

[00:31:32] two three meters from my door there's this swamp so it's a little mini swamp mini swamp

[00:31:42] it's a result of ground water I guess running through a hill which is behind our house and

[00:31:51] all that water ends up in this little swamp like structure just below our house in the woods

[00:32:02] and in this swamp there's this particular kind of spider it's not very big compared to other

[00:32:10] spiders in other countries but it's the biggest spider in Sweden and in the beginning I mean

[00:32:20] this is a this is proof of how people can change I've been scared of spiders as long as I can remember

[00:32:29] and when I moved here I thought now we're gonna have to move because it's this is I mean I've never

[00:32:36] seen spiders this size and then we couldn't move of course and now they don't bother me at all

[00:32:45] I mean of course I don't like them climbing around in my studio I don't know why because they keep other

[00:32:55] bugs away bugs that I really wouldn't want to have in here who could eat like my

[00:33:03] sound the sound absorbing cloths materials here so it's good that they're here but what

[00:33:15] I was gonna say it was that I don't I'm not afraid of them anymore not at all

[00:33:23] I feel sort of like oh it's a it's this is proof that it's summer again when they arrive

[00:33:31] so now I'm gonna end the topic of spiders because I know some people fear them

[00:33:36] in me including the old me including including the old me and

[00:33:45] and so then I signed with Acost the podcast and they had economic muscles and they could promote me

[00:33:58] and get me into tv shows and stuff talking about my podcast I got to do influencer

[00:34:07] corporations and then my podcast grew like very very fast and it became my whole life

[00:34:21] and then I thought I need to have a studio so I bought this living container it's called

[00:34:27] and they're built somewhere in eastern europe and you can you can just tell the manufacturer

[00:34:37] what you want in it so I wanted a window and a door and outlets in the walls and then

[00:34:52] then they built it and they shipped it here and by then it was just empty it was an empty container

[00:35:00] and the sound was terrible and there was also this other problem which is I

[00:35:10] I couldn't I couldn't have foreseen it well maybe I could if I've been a smart person but I'm not so

[00:35:17] it's very hard for internet for wi-fi connection to penetrate very thick metallic walls and a

[00:35:28] container is per definition thick metallic walls in a closed space so I'd I believe that I could

[00:35:41] have my house wi-fi just stream through the walls of the container because the container

[00:35:49] it's very close to the house but that didn't work so then I put the router in the garage

[00:35:57] I built this mesh system then forwarded the internet connection to the garage and then

[00:36:08] into my studio but even then the garage is like just a few centimeters from the studio

[00:36:15] that didn't work either because it's thick metallic walls and then my

[00:36:24] patient I got I lost my patience and I paid this guy to install like this

[00:36:33] um no I didn't pay anyone sorry that it was me I I drilled a hole in the house wall

[00:36:41] and I took a cable and I just buried it underground and then I drilled another hole in

[00:36:51] this wall of the studio and I just pulled the wire through there and just plugged it into my

[00:36:58] router so now I have this very long underground cable that provides me with internet

[00:37:12] but this was in the beginning and then I just tried to soundproof this place as much as I could

[00:37:21] but it was hard because I don't know anything about sound I mean when you start podcasting

[00:37:26] at least in the beginning there was this unspoken rule that or maybe unspoken

[00:37:36] condition that you don't really need to have great sound when you podcast

[00:37:43] it's sort of a nerd thing to do you know to just try and make the sound as good as possible

[00:37:50] but that changed and now there's almost no podcasts left at least left at least in Sweden

[00:37:58] where the sound is bad so I that I couldn't get away with that and then I invested a huge amount

[00:38:07] of money to redecorate refurnish this container to a real studio and that's where I sit today

[00:38:19] so maybe I should record myself while I do this and just and and put it up on my Instagram page

[00:38:28] Instagram account okay so now I'm going to okay I'm going to record myself and then I put it up

[00:38:41] on release day at my Instagram account fall asleep with Henrik so you can see how it looks

[00:38:47] in my studio okay so how I'm gonna do that I'm gonna do it like this so here I am I'm sitting in

[00:38:58] my favorite chair it's not a very comfortable chair really and the light in here right now is

[00:39:07] very dimmed because I find it comfortable to talk like this record the podcasts in this sort of

[00:39:23] unloosened environment and this is the studio as you can see it's very modest it's not very

[00:39:35] filled with furniture but I like it this way so this is where I spend most of my days

[00:39:46] okay now I've taped this and if you want to look at it you can go to my Instagram

[00:39:54] fall asleep with Henrik and have a look right now we're getting to a point where

[00:40:03] usually I get tired or foggy in my head and a lot of you have already fallen asleep

[00:40:14] so sometimes I just changed gear here I changed I changed gear here and I fall into this slumber like

[00:40:23] rambling where nothing really makes sense like cantaloupes and barbershops I used to sing barbershop

[00:40:35] when I was a teenager I had this barbershop quartet and believe it or not I was the bass

[00:40:44] singer they used to call me the baby bass because I'm such a small guy and we used to tour like

[00:40:58] we had gigs regular gigs we were so young I mean I was like 17 18 years old we used to perform at

[00:41:07] weddings and stuff and normal people so to speak people who didn't sing barbershop they thought that

[00:41:17] we sounded like angels coming down from heaven but to be truthful we sounded like maybe the opposite

[00:41:29] we sounded we sounded like the great evil manifesting itself on earth no we were really bad

[00:41:37] we were very untimed and we had also these four teenage boys voices you know but I missed those guys

[00:41:51] two of them were my really close friends one of the guys actually the guy who sang the baritone

[00:42:01] chords in my quartet he was actually one of my inspirations for creating this podcast in the

[00:42:11] first place in Swedish his name is Björn and he has this warmth about him he isn't per definition

[00:42:24] a very warm person but he has this very warm quality that makes hugging him feel like you know

[00:42:34] being hugged by Asel and the lion in the Narnia books he's really very I wouldn't say good because

[00:42:48] it's I think it's very limiting to to give someone the describe someone as good because it's

[00:43:01] it's a very limited quality I think when you look at it from outside but yeah he's good

[00:43:08] both of my friends Marcus and Björn are very good they're good people you know

[00:43:12] but Björn had this quality when I when we were teenagers and I slept at his place

[00:43:21] sometimes he used to talk and read out loud from books and stuff because he had this he always had

[00:43:28] these ideas that he was going to be a millionaire from stuff from different business ideas like

[00:43:35] uh something he had read or something he came up with and he almost he always he always oh god

[00:43:46] he always talked when we were supposed to sleep he just laid in bed and talked about

[00:43:55] theories and stuff he was mad about and stuff he thought about and all the different ways he

[00:44:02] was going to be a millionaire and all the different way the world was going to try and stop him from

[00:44:09] becoming a millionaire he was very classical dude like in that way but he was such a comfort

[00:44:18] because his voice always put me to sleep it's happened like so many times and when we grew up

[00:44:28] we moved into the same suburb outside of Stockholm called Vorbegård, me, Marcus and Björn

[00:44:35] and we lived in different apartments very close to each other like Marcus and me lived the doors

[00:44:43] next to each other and Björn lived in the building next to ours so we were at each other's

[00:44:49] places like all the time it was like in Seinfeld we just bust and we got let in and Björn was you could call him

[00:45:06] what do you call it a man of many traits he trades the traits

[00:45:11] and he was doing a whole all sorts of things he was a driver he was a croppier he was a salesman

[00:45:25] he was a taxi driver he was all sorts of thing all a very huge variety of occupations

[00:45:36] and sometimes he was quote-unquote between jobs and that's when I would come home from my work at

[00:45:47] like Swedish television or stuff and fall asleep on his bed while he was playing video games

[00:45:54] and it's such a and he was cursing and he was angry at the video games he's a very sore loser

[00:46:06] he doesn't like to lose this is not critique I love him I genuinely love him and he didn't like to lose

[00:46:17] but still although he was mad and cursing at the TV I was so comforted by his voice and presence

[00:46:30] and his you know the way he looked at me and the way he hugged me and it was a great comforting

[00:46:40] friend to have so he is actually one of the inspirations behind fall asleep with Hendrik

[00:46:49] so say thank you to Björn for me if you see him do you have any Björn in your life Björn in Swedish

[00:47:00] means bear that's the same word I think it's cool to be named after an animal I would like to

[00:47:17] be named after an animal Henrik it's not like it's a German name Heinrich I think or maybe

[00:47:30] yes well maybe is Henry is also a variant of that I guess the original word the original name

[00:47:40] is something similar to Heinrich I think I don't know if you know you can tell me by the way okay

[00:47:54] so this is a wild idea if you're still listening that is you don't have to still I don't I just talk

[00:48:02] you know but I got this wild idea since by now there's a little group of you like maybe a thousand

[00:48:11] people listening what if we could create this Facebook group equivalent to the one that is

[00:48:26] for the Swedish version of the podcast I wanted that to be the case for the Swedish podcast many

[00:48:37] years ago and then there was this wonderful wonderful person called Lisette who just created that group

[00:48:46] and one thing led to another and now I run that Facebook group I'm not I don't want to create

[00:48:57] another group and be the boss of it I don't because it's it's one it's too much work two

[00:49:07] it's I don't think I am the one who you should be I'm not the one who should be talking about the

[00:49:18] podcast you know I feel whenever in the Swedish Facebook group for some number Henry I try to

[00:49:29] meddle very little little into it I think it should be the members talking about

[00:49:38] the podcast it's also very nice to just sit there and read what's being said I love it

[00:49:46] with that said I go in and I comment and I say stuff I know also you a lot of you sleepies are

[00:49:53] listeners of the regular Swedish podcast as well but it would be cool if we had an English speaking

[00:50:05] group as well I don't see the present Swedish group being efficiently turned into an English

[00:50:14] speaking group I don't think that would be good I think it's my Swedish audience is like a very

[00:50:23] genuine genuinely kept together identity right now I don't see it being any good for anyone

[00:50:34] if I just changed language my Swedish base is like my whole world in a way this is still very early

[00:50:51] experiment but it would be cool so if you want to be early on and if you believe this will

[00:50:59] turn into something then just go ahead and start it and tell me that you've started it so then

[00:51:04] I will tell the others okay now I'm not gonna okay so while I'm on the subject sorry sleepy

[00:51:23] thank you all for writing and telling me what you think most of you who have written

[00:51:32] tells me that this is this works for them that it puts you to sleep I love that I love to hear

[00:51:39] it tell you friends if you enjoy it so then maybe I will make a permanent installation out of this

[00:51:50] I have decided now loosely that if within a couple of months I end up with around 10 000

[00:52:02] lessons worldwide from different countries outside of Sweden each month then I will do this for a while

[00:52:16] I will do this indefinitely I'm not sure how long because of course I need to grow even bigger to

[00:52:24] be able to make a living out of it but I mean 10 000 each month is the first goal

[00:52:34] so if I reach that I will continue but I will I will do this for two months maybe and see if it

[00:52:44] works and meanwhile I will do ads and if you are in any position to share stuff to others please do

[00:53:01] and then maybe this can grow it would be so cool it would be so cool if I could just

[00:53:08] reach out to an even bigger audience that would make me I mean that would make me truthfully

[00:53:20] maybe not happier because I think happiness doesn't really come like that but I would be

[00:53:29] fulfilled I think I want an audience and I know that this is not I mean I know that I

[00:53:54] now my head is just a giant beehive of thoughts and impulses and wants

[00:54:07] and I'm unsure or of where to take this I'm not finished yet I still have like

[00:54:17] seven minutes to go before the hour is up I don't really aim for like

[00:54:29] exactly one hour but around one hour I think is a good time period to be talking I have tried to do

[00:54:41] two episodes that are longer two hours but then it's like it's like it's like one I get bored and

[00:54:55] that's not good and two I get tired and that's not good either so bored and tired then I suddenly

[00:55:03] then I suddenly become my age so to speak I'm 48 years old sometimes I gasp by the wonders of my age

[00:55:15] I mean I'm such an old man all of a sudden I don't know how that happened and before you now rush away

[00:55:28] slide through the the the church aisle and do a

[00:55:38] and you just do a one hand jump over the altar and just rushes into the small

[00:55:48] spiral staircase behind the altar and rushes up to the tower and just sticks your head out

[00:55:55] from beneath the church bell and screams to the whole neighborhood that I don't know what I was

[00:56:04] going to say now this is an analogy that I use in some number hundred a lot that the listener

[00:56:16] becomes so upset with something I say so that they need to they feel the urge to climb a church

[00:56:25] tower and yell it to the whole neighborhood that I did something wrong I guess it's a it's a play

[00:56:33] with canceled culture I guess uh I'm gonna stop now if you haven't fallen asleep if this podcast

[00:56:50] really doesn't work for you I'm sorry but I'm not surprised it's it's not the same for everyone

[00:57:01] if you want you can listen to another episode and see if that helps you and if that doesn't do it

[00:57:09] then maybe just leave this podcast and come back another time or maybe there's something else you

[00:57:18] need you don't have to sleep to me you can just listen as well I have many listeners who

[00:57:26] will listen to this while drawing traveling so thank you for being here I hope that you sleep well

[00:57:45] and I hope that you feel that little tingling sensation in your body that says tomorrow will be

[00:57:58] an amazing day do you remember how it was when we were kids when you went to bed and you felt like

[00:58:10] you freaking hated the night because it's like this obstacle that keeps you from

[00:58:23] waking up the next day being fully centered in the world the world revolving around

[00:58:34] you being born at the right time at the right place being put into the world by the right reason

[00:58:42] for the right reason being loved but not thinking about being loved not longing for love being loved

[00:58:54] just being loved unconditionally without any rules or regulations or buts

[00:59:08] just being a small person in a big world I would like for you to feel that sleepy

[00:59:25] I would like for you to feel that being in this state called existence

[00:59:36] is one of the most curious things there can never be being alive or rather being being

[00:59:47] is like this huge deal and it's so exciting that we get to see tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow

[01:00:09] it's so exciting that we get to see the next second even and it's so exciting that we get

[01:00:19] to taste good stuff and that we need to feel amazing things and when that we get to be

[01:00:37] so thank you so much for listening and we'll talk again next week good night sleepy