The Sun Has No Shame Today

[00:00:00] Hi and welcome to Fall asleep with Henrik. I am Henrik and your sleepy, and it is what it is. What happens happens and right now there is nothing we can do. Let's begin. Hi sleepy. I am talking to you from a bright Sweden.

[00:00:36] It is so bright outside today. The Sun is literally throwing itself at me. The Sun has no shame today. It is just overwhelming. It feels like some sort of harassment really.

[00:00:58] I mean, I haven't asked for it to just be right in my face like this all the time. And now when I am inside my studio, I have this flickering sensation when I close my eyes because the darkness in here contrasts so very deeply.

[00:01:28] Against the Sun, High Sleepy. This is a podcast that you don't really have to listen to. You can just press play and let me do the talking while you drift off or do whatever you want. I haven't written anything down.

[00:01:50] I don't prepare what I am going to say. I just talk. I open my mouth and words come out. And I don't really know before, I don't know what's going to be put out there.

[00:02:09] And of course, I have a very fragmented and odd way of speaking because I'm not English. I'm Swedish. And that's why sometimes I will just lose flow. And I will say, weird shit.

[00:02:28] Like, okay, now I'm going to say something in Swedish and you will have to just figure out what it means. If you can, okay, so let's do a game. You can take a guess what it means.

[00:02:43] And then you can just write it somewhere in a DM to me, somewhere. Okay, so this is the line. You're against the old circle for the bar say, a lrent. Okay, sorry. What was it I said? What did I say?

[00:03:11] Now if you're thinking about turning this episode off, if you haven't listened to this before, let me just stop you for a moment. The point is not for you to understand each and everything. The point is not for you to get an opinion delivered to you from door.

[00:03:34] I'm just talking. And sometimes I am extremely weird. And sometimes I say things that could be understood, maybe even related to the thing that makes this sleeping material is that I don't prepare.

[00:03:55] And that I have a sort of a view or life, I guess, where things don't matter as much as we might think in our darkest hours. And the darkest hours for some reason they always appear when we're about to go to sleep. This is weird.

[00:04:17] I mean, I think a sleep or going to sleep going to bed as some sort of miniature vacation of sorts. At least here in Sweden whenever there's vacation time, everyone just shuts down, you know? Now it's vacation, you know?

[00:04:38] So we really reward ourselves when it's time for vacation here. I guess maybe in more countries, more cultures than just here. When it's time to be off from work, then you just to just have become some sort of the last days of Rome, you know?

[00:05:03] The decadence of the life we lead. So you drink, you eat, you sleep, you laugh, you play, you love. You know, you do have all of the things or you try to do all of those things anyway.

[00:05:20] You tell yourself that this summer, this vacation, this vacation, I'm going to do it all. I'm going to stand on the table on a bar somewhere, and I'm going to dance myself with a tie in my forehead. No, it's not that forehead.

[00:05:39] When I'm going to put my tie up into my hair, like a hairband, and I'm going to unbutton my shirt, and I'm going to just shake my booty, you know? Well, why don't we do that when we go to sleep? Not maybe, not, maybe not shake our booty.

[00:06:00] Maybe this happens. I don't know. I almost never shake my booty before I go to sleep. I almost never shake my booty anyway. You know? Maybe I should do that more often. Maybe there should be more booty shaking in my life.

[00:06:19] Actually, I can't remember even when I shook my booty the last time. Yeah, well, okay. Yes, I remember now. This was actually in Greece on the island, Meconos. I was there. This was like 15 years ago or something. I was there with a group of friends. All guys.

[00:06:47] And by then, I was this semi-celebrity in Sweden. I was the host of this TV show. And there was this other friend there who was this semi-famous actor, and we had our friends with us. And we thought of ourselves. I think like Hollywood stars on vacation, I think.

[00:07:12] Let me remind you that we were very young. And this was this journey. This trip was just this origin of booze really. Booze and dance and disco and beach. And you know, it was I wouldn't if I had, if I had to go back in time,

[00:07:39] I would tell myself that can you please just relax. You're not even halfway yet. And you're acting as if your bread pit on vacation or something. A young bread pit. And you're this freaking child, child actor who are trying to be cool.

[00:08:04] So okay anyway, I always end up bashing myself. Why do I do that? It's not on purpose. Believe me. I'm just, I, it's like every time I come onto the subject of my earlier life,

[00:08:24] I feel an urge to just tell people that I don't like the way I lived. Okay so I'm going to stop doing that now. What happened happened? I was the one that I was. Can you say that? I was the one that I was.

[00:08:47] Anyway, that was the last time I shook my booty like 15 years ago. I was at this night club. I think it was called like Scandinavian bar or something. So there was a lot of British guys there for some reason. And quite a few drag queens and us.

[00:09:11] There was this jolly bunch of people, mostly guys dancing their asses off. We shook our booty and I was very drunk and I climbed up onto a speaker. This huge speaker standing next to the bar on the floor.

[00:09:31] And I was dancing and I was, I was doing shots. And all of a sudden I just fell down. This was the part where I shook my booty by the way. From now on, the story will contain no booty shaking.

[00:09:50] So I fell off the speaker and I landed on this table filled with glasses, drinks, half empty glasses, discarded drinks. And I could have really hurt myself because of the glass, but I didn't.

[00:10:14] I just fell to the floor from the table to the floor and this huge pile of broken glass. And for some reason I didn't. I got a few scratches but I didn't hurt myself seriously. And there was this balancer.

[00:10:37] There was this guard coming up to me and in Sweden if I'd done that, fell from a speaker down on a drink table. I would have been thrown out most definitely. But here on Nuconals it was just, are you okay? Let's keep parting.

[00:10:56] And that was the last time I shook my booty. Good bye. Imagine if this had been the episode. Like I just wanted to tell you all from all around the world under which circumstances I shook my booty the last time.

[00:11:21] What I wanted to say is that why don't we treat sleep more like we treat vacation? Why do we think that we need to solve all our problems? Even the ones that we cannot possibly ever solve, like what will happen in the future. I need to control it.

[00:11:46] We can't, you know, we don't know anything. So why do we keep pretending that we suddenly can? And then we can go all day thinking about, you know, the pizza that we're going to have when we get home from work or I don't know what someone said.

[00:12:10] That was uncalled for on the lunch break or something and just spending half the day just trash talking that person and just. Why don't we solve our problems when we're awake and why do we try to solve them when we're going to sleep when we're going on vacation?

[00:12:32] Shouldn't we be going on vacation when we go on vacation? So that's my thought. So this is a podcast that you don't have to listen to. I will think and talk and make a mockery out of myself for you. So that you can just relax.

[00:13:02] There's so much stuff that you need to take action on. There are so many calls for action. People tell me, you need a call for action.

[00:13:21] Even when doing this, I have a lot of mentors and people I look up to and especially in the business of the people who are working on this. Especially in the business world, I have like two people that are important to me, business wise.

[00:13:38] They have worked as some sort of mentors for me in the past and a lot of them. A lot of the discussions were having involves the word call to action, the words call to action.

[00:13:57] And even in this case, when the very purpose of the podcast is there is no action. And especially it's no call for action. I won't call for you to do anything. There's a lot of discussions whether or not I should call to actions into this podcast.

[00:14:21] And sometimes I do, I mean I do. For instance, I realized that now that I started off with just a very obvious call to action, I asked you to interpret this Swedish phrase which I no longer remember.

[00:14:43] And mind you, if you're a Swedish listener who has transferred here from my Swedish podcast, some number of handic. Then you can't play, you can't the part of this game. I'm sorry but you're disqualified automatically because you know Swedish so it's not.

[00:15:06] It doesn't, you know, you won't impress me if you already know Swedish. So this is if you don't know anything, if you don't know any language at all, then you can be a part of this competition. And there will be this award ceremony and I will stand there.

[00:15:30] And I will, I will hold a speech and there will be very pompous music. And I will, I will say stuff like, okay, so here's this little sample of what I'm going to say. Well, I give you the award for best interpretation of an unknown Swedish phrase.

[00:15:58] There, everyone gathered here today. I want to introduce to you the magnificent sleepy with capital S. Sleepy is one of the most profound people in the world. If you can put the word profound onto a person, then sleepy here would be the one to carry it.

[00:16:29] I love sleepy. I think sleepy is the answer to so many questions. And then I will just show you off to the world. You know, the whole world with big, will be gathered there and they will watch you. And they will be in awe, they will applaud you.

[00:16:55] And then there will be this very awkward moment where everyone in the room will gather on a line and just walk up to you

[00:17:05] and maybe kiss your feet or maybe just touch your feet like with the tip of their fingers, like this little knock with the index finger on your big toe. Because you are wearing sandals, of course you are wearing sandals. I mean who wouldn't in a time like this?

[00:17:33] Is that by the way a sign that I am an old fart. Now, because I sometimes find myself wearing sandals. I have refused sandals in the past. I've always felt that sandals are beneath me.

[00:17:59] But now, especially on a bright day like this, I want there to be light on my feet. Because you almost never let light shine on your feet. They are always covered in something like cloth or leather or plastic or polymer or whatever it's called.

[00:18:23] It's almost never out in the open the feet. They are like this forgotten part of your body. So I've decided to wear sandals more often. Back where I was brought up out in the country, there was some guys who never wore shoes.

[00:18:54] That was a thing all year round maybe. No, I don't know about the wind turbid. At least as soon as the snow melted away, they just took off their shoes and their socks. And they just went around with dirty feet inside outside in bed everywhere.

[00:19:17] And no one thought twice about it. No one really gave it a second thought. So I don't know. Maybe like wearing sandals cocky shorts, not cocky but cocky. I don't know how do you pronounce there are two different words. Like cocky, like the fashion style that missionaries wear.

[00:19:51] Like if your doctor living stones and you have cocky shorts. And you can also be cocky, which is like an attitude. I mean, I could feel cocky while wearing cocky. And so wearing cocky cocky shorts and also wearing sandals. Beard can stock. That's a brand.

[00:20:16] And maybe a short, sleeved shirt with the squared patterns on it. And it will be tucked down into the shirt, into the shorts. And I will have a belt with a belt buckle. And then I will have sunglasses but it will be regular glasses.

[00:20:45] But with clip-ons like with the sun screen protection thing. And then I will be able to be clipped on to my original prescription glasses. And then of course this straw hat. Maybe the straw hat is a bit wrong.

[00:21:09] And I'm also supposed to have a cell phone in a special leather case attached to my belt with an antenna because it's one of these old phones. So the antenna will stick up from the case so that the radiation can really fluctuate around me.

[00:21:31] And I also consume like culture, but only with my wife. Never, I mean, so-called high culture. I go to see ballet. But only with my wife because I don't as a guy, I don't care at all about the high cultures.

[00:21:52] I care about football and hockey maybe or I don't know lacrosse. I don't even know what lacrosse is, but I see movies when the hunky guys are in the lacrosse team. I don't even know what lacrosse is. It sounds like a very buch thing to do.

[00:22:21] So I don't practice it myself as it is old fart. And I'm now trying to portray myself as. So I watch football and I have a lot of opinions about the rules and where or when they should be applied and to which team.

[00:22:41] So and I have a very strong set of political and ideological values. And they apply to anyone really, but to me really. I don't have so many rules that limit my own way of life.

[00:22:58] But I think that rules should be applied to almost every other person on the planet, except maybe for the president or the prime minister or whatever, that I think should be without borders being able to do whatever he or she wants.

[00:23:17] And I go to the ballet with my wife. I see this ballet, what is it called? The bot cracker. Yeah, yeah. I went with my wife to see this ballet called the bot cracker. And it was hilarious. It cracked me up.

[00:23:44] It cracked me up much, much deeper than the bot cracker did. And I laughed and I laughed and I laughed. And afterwards we went out and we had dinner and we had drinks. And as we sat down in the bed that night, my wife said,

[00:24:07] I haven't had so much fun with you for ages, darling. And I said, well, that's because the bot cracker was such an amazing ballet. Now, I need to pause this for a moment to tell you,

[00:24:30] if you're now in this state of confusion slash agony about where this going to lead or who is this guy. And what, how does this have to do anything with sleep? I'm just going to put it out there. I don't know. I don't know what I'm doing.

[00:24:55] Help me. I don't know. I'm trying to distract you, I think. And it's okay if you see right through that because what can I do? I mean, you're a genius. I can't possibly trick you into doing anything.

[00:25:12] The biggest mistakes people who are trying to help other people do, I think, is that they think of the people that they are trying to help as not like idiots. And how arrogant would it be for me to just sit here in my little studio,

[00:25:38] in my yard, in Stockholm, Sweden? And just think of you this unknown entity, the sleepy, the very sleepy. As some sort of a non-thinking victim of whatever, I don't know you.

[00:26:01] But I can almost certainly say that you're a genius and I don't mean this in a sort of a flattering way. Although I guess it could be flattering as well. But I believe that all of us really are geniuses.

[00:26:15] Of course there are idiots in the world, but when it comes to being taught or help or guided or whatever, we know what we need to do. We know what is demanded of us and we most certainly know when someone is trying to manipulate us

[00:26:40] or trick us or fool us into do something or think something. So, Ergo, I don't know anything. And I will be quite upfront with that. And I believe that that is what is going to make you relax, put it to sleep.

[00:26:58] If you want to sleep, you can listen to it awake and be a part of the discussion if you want. But I would never go so far as to think that I can actually teach you something or do something for you because you're the freaking sleepy.

[00:27:19] I mean you're great. You're this totally unique, totally diverse, different person. You are not me. I am not you. And isn't it a miracle that I can actually sit there and I can talk to you? I mean right now, you don't even exist.

[00:27:46] I mean in my universe and it's so cool that I can talk to you like you're actually here with me now, although I don't know you and probably never will. So, okay, so this becomes very fluffy now. I don't really know what I'm trying to say.

[00:28:12] So, what I wanted to say was that it's okay to be like what the hell they see talking about. It's okay. So now I'm going to tell you the story. I mean, what is this ballet, the bath cracker? What is it all about?

[00:28:37] So it all starts. Wouldn't it be fun if I actually knew the story in the actual ballet, the North Cracker? Wouldn't it be fun? This would be much more fun if I knew the North Cracker.

[00:28:52] But I don't. So okay, so this will be very weird and maybe funny and most certainty, not quite ready for cinema. Everyone should always ask themselves when they get an idea. Is this as it is right now ready for cinema?

[00:29:20] The answer is almost certainly in every case, no, it's not ready for cinema. And that is the sign that you should be looking for because if it's ready for cinema from the start, then it's quite uninteresting probably.

[00:29:41] Okay, so I'm going to put my head out there and I'm going to say that. Almost everything you see on cinema is uninteresting in a way that it's ready for cinema. Because cinema, and I'm not talking about the very art form cinema, cinematic films.

[00:30:02] Because it's of course this great enormous art form with 100 plus years on its shoulders. Now I think I really am talking about the industry of sorts and I don't just talk about Hollywood and I talk about Swedish cinema, whatever.

[00:30:25] As someone who has pitched a lot of film ideas here in Sweden, there is this demand really that if you approach this type of organization, organizations that can give you money to do stuff like this, then the question is always there implied, is this ready for cinema?

[00:30:52] And I mean, nothing interesting really is ever ready for cinema. Don't you agree? What think about what a unique story? Think about something that really touched you. Do you think that that idea? The very thing that made this probably quite linear story,

[00:31:16] but with this slightly off detail, this little casting detail or this very almost unseen shift in perspective. That made it go right into your very soul because that's what true stories, I mean good stories really do that. Even if it's just a boy meets girl and complications occur,

[00:31:45] and then they get each other in the end. Even if it's one of those movies, the good ones have something and it's always something weird. Don't you agree? Something that's not there but still there. And there's no really real particular reason for it to be there.

[00:32:05] It just is and that particular little weird thing becomes this hook that attaches itself to you. And it opens up your soul or enters your soul, however you want to put it. So nothing really is ever ready for cinema if it's a good thing.

[00:32:34] Of course, now I'm going to tell you the story about the Bothcracker and that story is okay. So first I'm going to tell you a version that is ready for cinema. Okay. So the Bothcracker is a ballet.

[00:32:50] This of course makes it unconventional because ballet is in most worlds, not a very common thing to go and see. And so I'm going to, I'm going to for the sake of it. Not make this traditional ballet. I'm going to just present the story here.

[00:33:16] So the Bothcracker ready for cinema version is about, okay, it's about a girl who comes home from her job as this top secret CIA agent. She's extremely talented in the arcs of all the marshals.

[00:33:46] She can fight, she can shoot, she can do recon and she's living the best life. And she's having this. She's feeling fulfilled. But then she get a message. In the beginning we see her just fighting some dudes

[00:34:06] and she does it very well and they don't start a chance. And of course she's in some sort of Middle East and country because I mean, why, where would she be otherwise? So it's in the very beginning is sort of,

[00:34:22] now you have to think like, this is a cinema ready person and you're this production company head. That is just sitting here waiting for me to deliver something that you can, almost immediately put out into production.

[00:34:41] So in the very beginning there will be this very clear contrast between the unorganized and messy world of those criminal guys in this foreign quote unquote country. And then there will be this order which the female CIA agents will bring to the game.

[00:35:04] And so there will be this built in idea that some parts of the world are uncivilized and the part of the world where the CIA agent comes from is civilized.

[00:35:17] So there will be fighting a lot of fighting in the beginning and she won't really be threatened at all. She will just kick, drop kick them to the ground. And maybe she will hear from some of her colleagues that you're too invested in work.

[00:35:40] You need to take a vacation but she don't want to. But then she gets the phone call from someone in her hometown, which is of course in the rural outbacks of the country she's from. And she's been leaving this part of the of her life behind because it's,

[00:36:00] you know, she, she didn't ever feel home there. She wanted to build something new so she but her father is dead. So she returns to her old outback dusty roads. And of course, she meets her her old boyfriend and of course there's this tension there.

[00:36:27] And then of course the death of her father turns out to be a murder. And then she will have to bring her violence from the CIA, CIA work back to the dusty outbacks, the rural dusty roads.

[00:36:50] And she will kick the asses off all the criminals and she will then maybe settle in her own dusty, dusty road country or maybe she will just honor it some way. So that was the story of this Reddy for Cinema, but Cracker Ballet. Now here's the,

[00:37:24] The Unready for Cinema Deluxe Story. And this is the version that I saw with my wife. So the story is about a female CIA agent and she lives on the top of a very large platform like in the middle of the desert.

[00:37:46] There's this very tall pole and on top of the pole. There's this little, a little wooden platform that's just as big to keep her own body lying down to sleep. So she lives up there because she's afraid of the ground.

[00:38:10] She's been afraid of the ground ever since she was a kid and lived in this rural rural, it's a hard word to say, rural dusty outbacks. And that was because when she was a girl and she walked on the ground,

[00:38:32] she burned her feet on this very hot gravel that had been in the sun for too long. And this you can say about the earth as overall, you know, don't you think that the earth? Sometimes just thinks that oh god, I'm sick of the sun.

[00:38:55] It's on me like 24, 7 and the part of the world that is in shadow must feel so relieved. That's just a thought. I'm not sure what I want to say with that. So she has this huge problem that she's afraid of the ground.

[00:39:17] And as a CA agent, she most definitely needs to be on the ground at some point. So she has this wire that goes from the top of the platform to a nearby tree.

[00:39:35] And she can only take missions around that area because she don't want to put her feet on the ground. So when there's this terrorist organization that's trying to blow up something or kidnap someone or whatever, they call her because of course she's her the CIA's best agent.

[00:40:00] You know, she's like she's always succeeds. But she always succeeds. When the crime or the bus or whatever takes place in that general area around her platform and then nearby tree. So she glides on that line. What is it called? It's a zip wire.

[00:40:31] So she just glides down and then climbs up again. And as long as she doesn't have to put her feet on the ground, she can just kick and scream and shoot and whatever. She has this weaponry up there so she can shoot that the bad guy's down there.

[00:40:51] But she always have to tell CIA that. As long as the crime or whatever takes place in my general vicinity, I can do this for you. But if it's in another country or even at another county, I can't do anything.

[00:41:09] So fruit off that's her standing catchphrase in the film in the story in the ballet of the broadcracker. Fruit off, she says, because it's we're not allowed to swear in ballet. Oh you didn't know that. Did you? Well in ballet, there are very strict rules about swearing.

[00:41:36] So in the ballet, the butt cracker for instance, you can't swear because if you swear, then the stage will collapse into this giant... What do you call it? Syncol and everything and everyone will just fall down.

[00:41:57] And before you turn off this episode now and scream from the top of your lungs out through the window into the society that you live in that. This podcast sucks, sucks whatever, whatever needs to be sucked in order to describe my feelings towards this.

[00:42:20] But it's awful because he's talking about sing calls in a podcast that's meant to put people to sleep.

[00:42:29] And then I just want to say that, I will never try to just calm you down from what I believe is appropriate enough to talk about in order to calm you down. Again, as I said before, I don't know you. I don't know who you are.

[00:42:53] Maybe you think it's very scary if I talk about meadows and butterflies and fluffy clouds that's just shaping and reshaping this guy. Maybe you're allergic to visualization techniques or meditation guided meditations.

[00:43:20] I wouldn't know how to do that even if I wanted to. The thing is that I only know like a couple of things, I know how to talk and I know how to put myself in unknown situations.

[00:43:43] Like for instance hosting a podcast in a language that's not my own. That's an uncomfortable situation and it's unknown to me whether or not this works while I'm on that subject.

[00:44:01] I've said it before and you've probably heard it, but do reach out to me if you want to tell me what you think about the podcast we're very early on in the beginning of this podcast journey and I want to know I need to know really.

[00:44:21] How it resonates with you as a listener because there's a couple of thousand of you now and you're listening from all around the world. So I have this goal of reaching this wider audience internationally and right now it looks good.

[00:44:48] But I need to know what works. So tell me what you think, tell me how you use the podcast or just introduce yourself. I like to get to know you like what do you do where do you live?

[00:45:04] What's your agenda, what do you dream of? How do you sleep? What do you think about the podcast do we use it to fall asleep? And while I'm on that subject subject.

[00:45:18] I just want to say thank you to all of you who have reviewed the podcast on the platform that you listen. Keep doing that, please. It helps tremendously.

[00:45:34] So the CA agent is she's very good. She always cracks the case, but she only does it when it's around her immediate surrounding.

[00:45:46] So of course the number of cases taking place just around the platform and the pole and the nearby tree and the sit blinding between are very few.

[00:46:00] So she just solves like one case every decade because considering your very heavy criminal syndicate or organization, not heavy in the sense that we weigh a lot as this criminal organization. Or I mean of course accumulated all of the individuals and gear and property of the criminal organization.

[00:46:30] Ways a lot of kilos, but it's not that's not what I mean. I mean that we really, we're heavy, we're heavy weights, you know, we're bad dudes.

[00:46:48] So just think of it. You have the whole world as you're playground and you want to commit a throssalys and you say that well, maybe we could be like on this.

[00:47:03] Around this pole and this tree at this very particular place in the world or you can say, let's go to another place where there's no CA agent that is the best CA agent in the world. Maybe you choose this other location.

[00:47:21] And I don't know, but last I checked the number of available locations in the world are like it's over. Okay, so I'm not sure about this statistics here, but the number of locations in the world.

[00:47:42] I mean the number of places that exists in the world is it's more than 10. I can say that safely, the number of places co-existing in the world is more than 10. Depending on what you need to define what is being referred to as a place.

[00:48:10] I mean a place can be an area between your thumb and your index finger, that can be a place and a place can be a country. And a place can be this little place on Mars.

[00:48:28] That is actually there right now, although none of us has ever seen it. There's this place right now on the planet Mars. It's just a few meters from end to end. Maybe 10 meters big. Like I don't know how you meant 10 by 10. No, it 5 by 5.

[00:48:54] So, okay, so that was very a squared place. But oh, okay, so 10 by 7. And it's just a rock formation and it's not a very weird or special rock formation. It's just rocks and sand, but the rocks lie in a very specific, although to our eyes very conventional positions.

[00:49:26] They form a pattern. And if you and I were to look at it, we wouldn't see in a specific pattern that talked to us in a certain way, but it would be a pattern pattern. It would be some sort of a, you know, form.

[00:49:48] But none of us no one alive has ever seen it. No one who has ever lived has ever seen it. Because we haven't looked there on Mars. Of course, we have looked all over Mars, but from very high altitude or grave distance.

[00:50:10] Can you say grave distance? I don't know. And what does this has to do with the story of the ballet, the bot cracker? I do not know. And maybe we will never know, because it's not ready for cinema. This podcast is not ready for cinema.

[00:50:34] So please, if someone asks you, if you're talking about this podcast that helps you fall asleep at night, you can say, well, this Swedish weird dude.

[00:50:48] And it's not very good. Really, it's just he just talks and but the best part of it is that it's not ready for cinema. So he's just Henryk, but that's place, that is a place, but exists, whether or not you or I or Aunt Mary,

[00:51:19] know about it or has ever seen it. We don't know that it exists yet it exists. That could just blow my mind sometimes because I think of this place. And I mean, it doesn't have to be on Mars. It can be like everywhere.

[00:51:43] It can be on a planet several light years from Earth and no life on the planet, nothing. It's just rocks and open sky and wind. And when the wind blows over the rock formation, this very specific particular rock formation, it sounds like this howling, whining noise.

[00:52:21] And that noise is there, several hundred light years from Earth, from us, from your ears. And on that type of distance, we also differ in time. Depending on how that planet or solar system or galaxy moves towards or towards or against, it towards or repels away from us.

[00:52:55] Our time and the time of the place on the different distant planet, just differ so much altogether. Our present are not the same, our presence are not the same. This truly fascinates me that maybe what I believe is now is 250,000 years ago.

[00:53:23] On some other planet, for real, because time is also limited by space. It's not something just, you can just, there is no unison now across the universe. You can't say that now here is the same as now on the Sun or near the Sun or 200,000 light years away.

[00:53:52] This means, I don't know what it means but it gives me goosebumps because it means that my now is a very subjective thing for real, not just something that I can just think about and believe it there.

[00:54:11] It means that I'm responsible for my own now because there is no other now for me. My now, when I die, my now is gone because my now occurs only in my universe.

[00:54:26] It's a sense of responsibility but also my now is a very sacred thing that I need to take care of.

[00:54:37] I need to cherish it and honor it and to be able to share it at least share the illusion of this shared space that you and I have right now.

[00:54:50] It's an illusion because we don't have a shared space but the illusion is good enough I think and somehow in some way the illusion becomes real when we say yes to it when we accept it as if you're listening right now you probably are right.

[00:55:14] You are accepting this illusion that you and I are at the same place and at the very same time, I think it's beautiful. I think it's so beautiful sleepy.

[00:55:29] I think it's beautiful that we can connect like that because this illusion maybe it's more than an illusion because it's real I don't mean that it's not real. But it doesn't have anything to do with physical space or physical time if you can say that.

[00:55:52] I think it's beautiful because this shared illusion gives us the opportunity to meet like people who's been dead for centuries and to meet in a way people in the future like I will meet you because this episode is going out in the future.

[00:56:12] I'm sending something out into the future right now and I mean it's not just I'm sending out a probe into empty space. I'm sending this me, I'm sending me to you and I truly love that and I truly care for you sleepy.

[00:56:35] I truly am so happy that you're here into this my little, my little experiment project which I still know still don't know if it's going to work or not.

[00:56:50] But for what it's worth, I do love you. Thank you for listening to this and I hope you sleep tight.