The Humbling Rumbling Rambling

[00:00:00] Hi and welcome to Fall asleep with Henrik. I'm Henrik and you're sleepy, and it is what it is. What happens happens and right now there's nothing we can do about it. So let's begin. High sleepy. Okay, so this is the first time doing this in English.

[00:00:38] As you can hear from my accent, I'm not quite fluid in the English language. Well, I speak it. I am fluid in it. But as you can hear from my accent, I'm Swedish. I've been doing this podcast this sleep-aiding podcast here in Sweden for about six years now.

[00:01:12] And I've been trying to do an English version of it. During the years, I've been doing it with the help of chatGPT and speech synthesis.

[00:01:25] But it doesn't really do it because this podcast is based on me, on my very special and particular kind of way of talking, looking at the world. So it's not really possible to automate it. So I've decided to give this a shot.

[00:01:50] And if enough people, non-speaking people, non-swedish speaking people, it appreciates this very odd way of making people calm down and fall asleep,

[00:02:09] then I will make more episodes. I will make a habit out of it. So, okay, so how do I explain this podcast? First of all, you don't have to listen to this.

[00:02:30] You just press play and then you've done your part of it. And then you let me do the talking. I've been putting people to sleep in Sweden for many years now.

[00:02:47] And it's only me. I don't have any script, I don't prepare anything and I don't edit anything out except for maybe when I sneeze right into the microphone that will be edited away.

[00:03:06] Otherwise, it's just me. And I will tell stories which I improvise in the moment. I will create fake interviews with people that sounds exactly like me because they are me, but I will maybe call them something else.

[00:03:23] So I will tell you a lot of personal stuff from my own life. And the common theme is that I don't prepare and the voice, the style in which I talk right now, it's this is it. What you hear is what you get.

[00:03:51] I want to do any, I don't have an exclamation marks within this episode. I want yell, I want, well, I will laugh, I guess.

[00:04:07] Depending on what I say, sometimes I surprise myself saying things that, well, it surprises me. I am very conflicted about my own English. Since this is improvisation, I don't do it as well as I do in Swedish. It's hard for me to let my brain just, what do you say?

[00:04:40] Go have a, in the same way that it can in my own native tongue. Well, I'm on that subject. It's also, I mean, I want edit anything out and I have this theme called, it is what it is, what happens happens.

[00:05:07] I think it's a good thing to just have in mind in life overall. There are so many things that you can't do anything about, and that's, it's a good thought to carry with you because it's, I mean, especially when you're about to sleep, thoughts come, you know, and you get worried.

[00:05:34] What I was about to say was that I'm not going to pretend like the worries of the world doesn't exist. This is not that kind of podcast. This is not a soothing hypnotic psychological thing where I slowly get you to forget about the world.

[00:06:04] Some sort of, inner genius of mine because believe me, I'm just some Swedish dude and my only real talent is improvising, making stuff up.

[00:06:19] So with that said, I'm going to talk about whatever I come up with. Sometimes there will be themes and words and stuff that maybe you or you or who may ever listen listening doesn't really think should be in a podcast aimed to put people to sleep.

[00:06:41] But it's going to be that way because I'm one I can foresee what people will perceive as triggers or hard topics to touch.

[00:07:02] And to I think that we should really overall as a community if I can talk to the whole of humanity as a community, I think that we really would benefit from accepting that issues, problems, troubles, fright and pain is really unascapable parts of life.

[00:07:30] And we would do best to just accept it. And I know that this is hard and I'm not saying I'm good at it, I'm bad at it really. So this is kind of my way of explaining what this podcast is about and you don't have to listen.

[00:07:57] I try to be entertaining but since I don't prepare anything and since I don't have any escape goats, I can't go to something else and I can't play a jingle or go to commercial or something.

[00:08:15] This is just it. Then I will be boring sometimes and that's fine because sometimes I will say by accident, may I say by accident, very profound things. I am going to say stuff like it is what happens, which I think is really wise.

[00:08:40] I didn't come up with that myself, that was some stoic back in ancient days but I will say stuff like that and I will sometimes surprise myself by saying something really funny.

[00:08:55] I don't know how this will come out in English because as I said, I'm not that rat. I'm not a rat which I am not.

[00:09:08] If I know you might be wondering what I am, if I'm a human or a rat, I mean that's a very valid question to ask when you start to listen to a podcast.

[00:09:19] I mean it's really, for me, it makes a difference. If the host of a podcast is a rodent or a humanoid ape, I want to know. That doesn't mean I would necessarily avoid listening to a podcast hosted by a rat. I guess it would be interesting.

[00:09:45] But I guess I would want to know. Okay, as you heard, now this is a type of thing that happens frequently in this podcast. I just aim for the empty voids in my own mind and I go there and stuff happens.

[00:10:10] Like I just change subjects and I go somewhere else. All you have to do is just press play and then do whatever you do when you need to go to sleep. Let me be your messy mind for a while.

[00:10:31] So the aim right now, this is my first time ever doing this with my own voice. My aim is to if this gets picked up. If you like this, share it with your friends or write to me and tell me that you liked it.

[00:10:55] You can reach me at handric at, no, sorry, wait, I need to think about this which email address I should put out because it's okay. So, okay. The Swedish name for this podcast is SOMNA-MAD-Hanrik. It sounds like it's exactly like it spells exactly like it sounds.

[00:11:20] I spell HANRIK with a K. So my email address there for would be HANRIK at SOMNA-MAD-Hanrik.se. Right to me and tell me if this works for you or if it doesn't then tell me what I should do different.

[00:11:43] I can't promise you I will do a lot of these episodes because I don't know if it's really in the market. Maybe this is like a very stupid idea to just to even try.

[00:11:57] It works very well in Sweden. I have hundreds of thousands of listeners each month, just listening to me rumble, rumble, or rumble. I guess that's two different words, isn't it? Ramble and rumble.

[00:12:15] Well you can listen to me rumble as well because that's what I do on the inside like 24-7. Okay, I feel very, very unprotected right now because it's very close to what are you saying?

[00:12:38] I feel close to cringe. CTC, close to cringe because it's your kind of naked when you, when you talk, when you speak a language that's not yours. But I met this wonderful human being called Yuna Jinton. Yuna Jinton, I don't know why I said Yunna.

[00:13:07] Yuna Jinton the other day she was a guest in my Swedish podcast, Vandra Mahandri, wander with Henry. And she does, she's from Sweden but she does all of her content in English.

[00:13:24] And she's really, I guess she doesn't even know about it but she has really made it clear to me that you don't need to speak like British English to make it, you know, to reach people outside your own nation's borders.

[00:13:44] And I believe that I have something to say that applies to more people than just my own countrymen.

[00:13:50] So I, I'm trying this and if you find this soothing or funny or borderline absurd boring, then tell me, write a review or write to me or just tell your friends. And also of course, I mean just shut this off and never listen to it again.

[00:14:22] But I think and I feel that I really have at least I owe it to myself to try and since speaking to Yuna late earlier this week,

[00:14:36] I have felt so enabled and brave and inspired because she's such an inspiration. She really is, and if you don't know who she is, it's just look for her on YouTube, she's enormous. I mean she's, she's a huge, it's a huge account.

[00:15:04] Okay, so with that said, I don't know what I'm going to say now. Now this is the, this is the tricky part because it's easy for me to just make a poor translation in what I do and what this podcast is about.

[00:15:25] And by the way, if you haven't already, just you don't have to listen to me. You, you don't owe me anything.

[00:15:34] You could just listen to me like in the background somewhere while you talk with someone else or if you just want someone close to you that just speaks and you don't really care what he says.

[00:15:48] I mean, you know, it's imperfect because I'm just me and I will sometimes speak extremely bad English like this for instance, this sentence. I will speak extremely bad English, this is a Swedish, this is a sentence that works in Swedish but sounds really bulky in English.

[00:16:19] I will do this all the time, but perhaps my odd way of speaking of talking can push you some into something else and therefore forgetting some over your unconvenient thoughts and stuff that just plagues you when you're about to go to sleep.

[00:16:51] I don't know, in Sweden there's also two parts to my audience like some of my listeners are listening to this to my Swedish podcast, some of them are having to follow sleep.

[00:17:13] I say it is what happens happens and right now there's nothing we can do let's begin and then some listeners just so not go to sleep.

[00:17:26] Some listeners listen for an extended period and then fall asleep and then there's this group of listeners that listens to the entire episode because it is a.

[00:17:44] It is a very special and unique world that you will enter after listening to a few of my episodes, you will enter the state of Henryk, I guess you will be a part of my own universe.

[00:18:00] And that's desirable in this case because it will make you see the world a little bit as I am like it's. It's a miraculous and exciting place to be in the world although it's turbulent times and. Unsick your conditions.

[00:18:28] What's going to happen we don't know nobody knows and I think that the best thing. Each and every one of us can do. In order to be able to live and breathe in a world that's constantly changing is to be acceptance of it is to say.

[00:18:59] It is what it is what happens happens and tomorrow will bring would tomorrow will bring and I will carry that too. And everything changes all the time. Everything changes like constantly. And we can't do anything about it.

[00:19:25] We can't really affect the actual conditions under which we live our lives. I'm not saying that we can't change anything because we can, I mean apparently obviously we can change stuff. For instance, I'm making somewhat of a change myself right now.

[00:19:53] Trying this in English I mean it's a change. I do something it's action. And reaction or what do you say so that's one thing.

[00:20:06] I mean you can change things. This is not a pacifistic just lay down and let the world run you over kind of podcast but there's a time for everything.

[00:20:21] And if there were something that you could change then you would be doing that right now instead of listening to me. And I think that both ways are valid. I mean sometimes you need to go up and you need to do something.

[00:20:44] And sometimes you need to drift away. And this thing that you're experiencing right now whether or not it works for you. This is a drift away kind of thing. So tomorrow when you wake up, you can go change things again.

[00:21:05] You can go work on the things that you can change and you can do like personal work on why you need to accept that some facts of life you can change. You can't make them different. You can only change your own approach.

[00:21:33] And I think that this needs to be said over and over again. And that's why I think that maybe maybe I don't know. Maybe I have some sort of role to play saying this over and over again. Maybe I can be some use outside of Sweden as well.

[00:21:58] I'm trying you know and I don't know if this will work or not but I guess we'll see. Sometimes there will be extended periods extended the seconds like in the beginning. Extended seconds not regular seconds like extended seconds of silence in this podcast.

[00:22:45] And that's because as the time goes more and more people fall asleep listening to this in Swedish that is I don't know about maybe it's some kind of you know. In English maybe it's like this way of talking really provokes people and just creates stress and fury.

[00:23:13] I don't know about you but I don't want to create fury. I don't like creating fury. Fury, fury, fury. I don't like to create fur because fur you can't really create it because it's a biological things it grows out of animals you know or people.

[00:23:36] I mean some people are furry. I was at the Comic Con the other day and there were a lot of fur is there. And then there was this huge group with furries just running around in a very furry club.

[00:23:53] And then there was this regular guy with like a suit and glasses and he was just there and no one else, no one of the furries talked to him. It was just there and the first I thought maybe he's like their handler or something.

[00:24:12] I don't know about furries but don't they need like someone who takes care of all the practical stuff because it's hard in that. In that costume to you know interact if you want to buy a soda or something you can't really.

[00:24:28] And I can imagine the urge to buy a soda would be great because I gather it's warm. I've been inside of stuff like that. I mean I've been inside of those costumes from time to time and I can relate to the aspect of heat in them.

[00:25:00] How I complicate my sentences. Sorry sleepy is it okay if I call you sleepy by the way. Okay, I don't remember what yeah, okay it was the guy with a suit and glasses and he had like he was bawling.

[00:25:27] He was this mid-stage or odd looking white guy and he was well maybe my age like around his 40s. And he was looking at the furries and he was talking but none of the furries seemed to respond.

[00:25:52] Of course it's hard to see if a furry really responds to you in a very obvious way because you can't see the person's actual mouth. But he was talking so I went closer and then I realized he was just talking to himself.

[00:26:13] He was just a mad man you know walking with a furries because he he liked it there you know. And they I don't know if they had the means or even the ambition to just ask him what he wanted or maybe ask him to leave them alone.

[00:26:34] And because maybe they didn't see him in their costumes and their giant furry heads or something. And so he was just there talking to himself and he seemed to be enjoying himself.

[00:26:52] Maybe that's me right now if I imagine you sleepy as the furry and I'm the crazy mid-laged mad man who just speaks to himself which is really so very true that it's exactly what I do right now.

[00:27:08] And when I think about it, I'm not even I mean when I record this I haven't even released the episode.

[00:27:18] I mean so this right now no one in the whole world knows that I'm doing this so I really am a mad man a crazy mid-laged mad man sitting in my studio in Stockholm Sweden. I am 48 years old.

[00:27:42] I am you can if you look at the podcast cover you can see any image of me.

[00:27:49] I'm not very happy with how I turn out in that image but then again I'm always I'm almost never happy with how I look in images and I think that sets me apart from everyone else in the whole world no I'm kidding.

[00:28:07] I guess everyone really hates their own image which is maybe one of the saddest things in the whole universe I think because it's it's a sad thing that it's so easy for us to bash ourselves you know to hate ourselves why what's the use what's the what's the benefit of doing that.

[00:28:37] But it's easier said than done to really fully love yourself and this is not a podcast that's going to preach to you like at least not in a at least not by purpose you know.

[00:28:58] I'm gonna do it I'm gonna do it sometimes but only because it's it slips out I don't really have any wise things to say. The only thing I'm really good at is talking nonstop and I am very good at word play.

[00:29:29] I have a vivid imagination although it's a bit tied in a language different than my own do you want to hear some Swedish by the way.

[00:29:44] I can give you an example of some Swedish and then and of course I will say something really weird now in Swedish because I.

[00:29:57] But once I met this guy from Peru I think and I asked him to teach me something very weird in Spanish and then he taught me this phrase and if you're from Spain listen to this.

[00:30:16] I'm sorry I mean it could be mean anything I don't really know I mean I know what it's supposed to mean but I don't really know if if it's the correct way to say it or even if it's offensive I don't know so if it's offensive I'm sorry in advance.

[00:30:32] Okay so the thing he taught me to say is he atas can start wemos el uno al otro which is supposed to mean do you want us to tattoo each other now.

[00:30:48] It's such a crazy thing to say to person but I say that all the time when I'm in Spain and every time I say that I get to I get to tattoo and then I give someone a tattoo and it's an and I sound absolutely ridiculous when I say the word tattoo tattoo.

[00:31:13] Okay so I am not going to do this like for how for how for for the out I'm not going to do this for how our. Because I think I need to go back and. Listen to this and make choices so what I'm going to do.

[00:31:50] Dear dear sleepy and thank you and I love you for listening this far I mean you're incredible. I don't know who you are but you're incredible. Okay so what I'm going to do right now is that I'm not going to edit anything out.

[00:32:10] I'm not going to polish anything of this. I'm just going to press stop on my recording device. I'm going to write an episode description. I'm going to generate an episode cover and then I'm going to publish this and it's up to you to tell me what you think.

[00:32:38] Do you think this could work could this maybe. Put you to sleep just some random Swedish guy rambling until you fall asleep or whatever other reason you have for listening to a Swedish guy rambling or rambling whatever.

[00:33:00] If you think that it might work tell me so that I know because it's hard to know. In the digital landscapes, you know if no one tells me anything.

[00:33:16] And I mean of course I could measure it by listens number of lessons but it's a boring way it's more fun to connect with people so right to me. You can also so find me on YouTube.

[00:33:29] Handric stole stole is how do I say it's an A with a little ring over stole. Handric and my hand along YouTube is handric underscore stall STHHL. So you can write to me there as well.

[00:33:56] I have a YouTube channel which is in Swedish but it's subtitles you know kind of different languages. So you can reach me there as well and I'm sorry I don't want to end this on a note of like making PR for myself.

[00:34:15] This is not the purpose I was just trying to make you feel comfortable enough to reach out to me and tell me what you need. I mean so now you've get acquainted a bit a bit acquainted with the mythology that I use that I have.

[00:34:34] And from here it's up to it's up to you really. So this is the first real episode of Full Us League with Handric. The podcast has been around for a while but the episodes which I now are deleted. That I've put out so far is.

[00:35:03] Generated by AI and I mean I love that it's beautiful but it's not really me you know. Maybe I could use that if my podcast were more of a generic type of information podcast but it's not.

[00:35:23] Full Us League with Handric is my personality concentrated right into your ears and I'm sorry. I'm sorry sleepy. I know that I don't know you. I know that I couldn't and I shouldn't know you.

[00:35:57] But as I speak as I talk to you, I have this image of you and that makes me feel safe. That makes me feel like I want to give you comfort and relief you know. That is how I feel when I do this in Swedish.

[00:36:29] And that's why I feel like I can do this. I feel like I have a function and I mean it's a wonderful feeling to have and to to carry with you. A feeling that you're needed, you know, not just. Needed by the people in your direct.

[00:36:55] Your family or whatever. But by people in general a little group a small group of people. I really think really that I enjoy this. I actually think that this could be fun to do. And if I get to do more episodes will I and it depends. It depends.

[00:37:30] So I'm saying this more to myself now than I am saying it to anybody else. If I'm going to make more episodes, it depends really on how. How does feels? So this is an ad, a contact ad you know. And it's my hand reaching out.

[00:37:55] Seeing, seeing if anyone wants to take my hand. And if I do any more episodes then they will not just be around what kind of podcast this is. This has been a concentration just to establish what this is.

[00:38:17] So what happens in general in my episodes is that I start by talking about something random, like what I've done today or something I wonder about or something that I thought of recently. And then it turns into a story or an interview or something just rambling and chaotic.

[00:38:49] Something rambling like a coyote. Oh god, I'm such a lousy. Lousy. My, my, my, my. I mean, have you ever tried this improvising, you know, trying to speak just the words that form inside your brain and trying to translate them in real time.

[00:39:15] Because that's what it is when you when you speak a different language. I mean, of course for people from Sweden, this is the case every time you go abroad because no one speaks Swedish anywhere.

[00:39:30] You know, so then then you can I mean well maybe Norway or Finland they understand Swedish and Denmark. But in other countries, you need to speak English and I mean I have been traveling a lot thankfully almost always in my line of work.

[00:39:55] So I am a quote unquote professional when I arrive at the places where I'm forced to talk to people that gives me a sort of a confidence.

[00:40:11] Because you are someone you have a role, you know, but whenever I go abroad as a tourist, I get this I freeze, you know.

[00:40:27] I get this beach block but I talk anyway because you have to, you know, you can't just go around as a mute and order food and ask directions.

[00:40:42] But you come somewhat of a very rude person because you're like if you I mean it's a bit different in English because I know it's so well that I can utter like maybe three words in a correct.

[00:40:58] But whatever you're for instance in France or Spain or anything then you know like two three words. So it becomes like very very really very rude to walk into a sort of a bakery, for instance. And you point at something and you said like bread.

[00:41:18] And they say hello very welcome. Please feel free to take a look around it's a very sunny day outside don't you think? And you don't understand, you just stare at them and then you point at the bread and you say bread.

[00:41:31] So you would come like this very rude person whenever your live translating stuff from one language to another.

[00:41:49] But I think this is the only way I could do this right now because AI it's a wonderful thing and it helps me in so many ways but it can help me translate me.

[00:42:02] And I feel that I, the thing in me that is me that is that is exactly the thing that needs to get into your ears. I can't with good conscience just fabricate that it needs to be me.

[00:42:25] So if you like this tell me tell your friends and maybe we'll talk again soon. Good night sleepy.