In this mesmerizing episode, Henrik takes us on an unexpected philosophical journey through the nature of pain, existence, and... bananas.
Starting with a meditation on the true nature of physical sensations, he weaves together childhood memories of experimenting with pain, the concept of entropy, and our collective existence in what he describes as a cosmic supermarket.
With his signature blend of profound insights and whimsical tangents, Henrik explores everything from the curvature of bananas to the nature of time itself, all while maintaining his soothing, meditative tone.
This episode is particularly special for those who enjoy existential contemplation wrapped in comfort and occasional absurdity. Whether you're questioning the nature of existence or simply wondering why bananas aren't straight, this episode provides a unique perspective on being alive – and being in pain – in this vast, mysterious universe.
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[00:00:46] Hi and welcome to Fall asleep with Henrik. I'm Henrik and you're sleepy and it is what it is. What happens, happens and right now there's nothing we can do. So let's begin.
[00:01:07] Well hi there sleepy. Hi. I'm Henrik and as usual this podcast isn't worth your while. I mean not in a literal sense I guess. It's worth your while if it's worth your while. But you don't have to listen to this. I am not gonna say anything profound except when I do.
[00:01:38] And when I do that's well that's a coincidence. I am going to talk without any script or without having prepared anything for an hour and your only job is to do whatever you want to do with my voice. You can put it on in the background without even noticing any particular words.
[00:02:04] Or you can just very, very vividly, vividly listen to my voice. As you can hear I'm not English speaking.
[00:02:16] I am just, I'm just a girl standing in front of a boy telling him why is this random podcaster using movie lines just out of random.
[00:02:35] As you can hear this is a very fragmented and illogical podcast. I'm going to talk and your, my aim is for you to fall asleep.
[00:02:49] But you don't have to, if you don't want to. I'm not going to force you and I'm, I'm not, I repeat, I'm not going to hypnotize you or use any tools available only to me.
[00:03:06] Because this is not, I'm not, I'm not, I'm not. Have you, have you ever run into, if you have trouble sleeping then you may have run into people saying that they have a solution for you.
[00:03:24] That if you just do this, if you just buy this and that from me or if you just listen to this free thing and then buy this other thing then I will fix your problem.
[00:03:39] And especially when it comes to sleep, there is no such thing really. Except maybe for, well, pills that put you to sleep like straight away.
[00:03:56] But I've, I read somewhere that that isn't really considered sleep. That's more like coma in a way.
[00:04:08] That's why people, when they wake up from a coma, don't feel refreshed or relaxed because it's two different things.
[00:04:17] So sleep is, it's very hard to replicate artificially.
[00:04:23] You just need to sleep. That's, that's the tricky thing with sleep that it needs to be you who's doing the sleeping.
[00:04:31] No one can do the sleeping for you really. And that's why whenever you run into someone that says, I will put you to sleep.
[00:04:45] That, that's an impossible promise to make. So I can't tell you that I'm going to fix this.
[00:04:51] I can't tell you that I'm going to put you to sleep. I'm, I, I'm going to try and, but at the same time, I'm not going to try.
[00:05:05] That's my opus modus operandi, as they say.
[00:05:13] When creating this podcast, I don't have any ambition of putting you to sleep.
[00:05:19] I just talk, you know, and I find it kind of entertaining.
[00:05:24] As far as my own personal needs go, I kind of enjoy this because it's, well, it's like life in a sense.
[00:05:37] You just, you just, you're in this cart, you know, at a supermarket that is the universe and you're just being dragged around in it.
[00:05:47] Best case scenario, you're out of the cart and you're just pushing the cart and just putting all your stuff in it.
[00:05:55] And just pushing your cart aimlessly through the aisles of this supermarket.
[00:06:01] And you don't know what you're doing there. You don't even know what you want, really, what you need in terms of products, grocery.
[00:06:13] So you just put random stuff there, you know, and some of the stuff that is in your cart was there from the beginning.
[00:06:21] You don't even know how it got there.
[00:06:23] You know, you have this weird, you know, salsa-based cream or whatever.
[00:06:37] And you don't know what it's doing there.
[00:06:39] It's just been there since the start or since you became conscious, since you crawled out of the cart.
[00:06:46] But in the beginning, it was your parents who drew the cart, who drove the cart.
[00:06:54] They didn't drew the cart, they drove the cart.
[00:06:57] And now, if you're a grown-up listening to this, whether you like it or not, it's you who drive the cart through this weird supermarket that is the universe.
[00:07:10] And we don't know, any of us, what we're doing there.
[00:07:12] Sometimes we run into each other and we just stare, you know, because I don't know whether or not you have anything to offer or am I supposed to give you something or are you supposed to give me something or are we supposed to cooperate in this weird game called life?
[00:07:34] But there's no need to feel fear or anything.
[00:07:43] I mean, you could.
[00:07:45] Fear is a perfectly valid feeling.
[00:07:47] Pain is a perfectly valid experience.
[00:07:51] And of course, it's inevitable to sometimes experience those things.
[00:07:58] But there's no need really to indulge in those experiences because you can't do anything about this lostness, you know, that you're lost in this supermarket called universe.
[00:08:17] That you're on this shopping spree that is life.
[00:08:24] Maybe a shopping spree is a depressing way of, it's a depressing analogy when it comes to life.
[00:08:34] But in a sense, it's true.
[00:08:39] You know, you go through life like you go through a store and some of the stuff that you accumulate are being offered to you for free.
[00:08:51] But some of the stuff that you get to put in your cart, you pay for, you know, with time and money, relationship and other strains.
[00:09:06] So, I think it's a good analogy.
[00:09:08] Although it's kind of depressing because it implies that whomever created the universe is interested in payments of sorts.
[00:09:20] And there my analogy kind of dies.
[00:09:29] It's actually fun to break down experiences into pieces.
[00:09:35] If you haven't done so, I highly encourage you to do this.
[00:09:42] When I was a kid, I used to do this.
[00:09:44] And then I had a long sabbatical decade.
[00:09:49] And now I'm back at it.
[00:09:53] I am experiencing the need to break down experiences.
[00:10:01] That was a very weird way of putting that I like to break down experiences.
[00:10:08] But that's what I like to do.
[00:10:10] I mean, this is appliable on both emotions and physical experiences like pain.
[00:10:22] Okay, so this is a thing I used to do when I was a kid.
[00:10:25] And I think I'm going to start doing it again.
[00:10:29] And you can do it too if you want.
[00:10:32] You can take a...
[00:10:35] So, this is doable in many different ways.
[00:10:40] But this is how I would do it.
[00:10:42] I would take like a pen or something.
[00:10:45] And then I would cause some minor pain on my body with this pen.
[00:10:52] For instance, I would hit myself on the knuckles with a pen.
[00:10:58] So, this isn't about causing maximal pain or anything.
[00:11:05] It's not an exercise in pain tolerance or anything like that.
[00:11:11] So, don't get me wrong.
[00:11:13] I don't want you to hurt yourself like for real.
[00:11:16] I want you to hit yourself like slightly harder than is comfortable on, for instance, your knuckles or any other part of the body where you're sensitive.
[00:11:28] And I'm not talking about hitting yourself so hard that you can't deal with it.
[00:11:33] It's just some minor pain experience.
[00:11:38] You can do this like one time and then experience the feeling that comes.
[00:11:47] And really zoom into it and really look at what that pain consists of.
[00:11:56] Like breaking it down into pieces.
[00:11:58] Like focusing all of your imagination and focus and concentration and trying to really document what the pain really is.
[00:12:15] Because pain is such a basic experience.
[00:12:22] And we never really think of what it consists of.
[00:12:28] Because, of course, everything consists of something.
[00:12:31] And you can do this with every physical experience, of course.
[00:12:35] You can do this with hunger and with itching or, well, maybe everything is a, you can do this with a very strong headache or anything.
[00:12:54] Like any physical phenomena you can do this with.
[00:12:58] And, of course, you can do this with psychological phenomena as well, emotions.
[00:13:05] And, but it's harder with emotions.
[00:13:08] It's a bit easier with like semi-strong basic emotion like anger or fear or lust.
[00:13:16] You know, you can break it down.
[00:13:17] You can look at it.
[00:13:18] But as soon as it becomes too strong, it gets hard.
[00:13:23] And as soon as it becomes like complicated, you don't really know what it is.
[00:13:29] Then you need some preparedness.
[00:13:31] You need to be exercised, you know.
[00:13:33] And that is why these minor physical exercises are very good to start with.
[00:13:40] So I did this a lot when I was a kid.
[00:13:42] And I can't really say that I remember how it felt like.
[00:13:47] But apparently it stuck with me.
[00:13:50] Because it's, you know, I still remember it.
[00:13:55] And I'm going to start doing it again.
[00:13:57] I actually did it yesterday.
[00:13:58] I hit my toe in the threshold.
[00:14:02] When I was going, I don't know.
[00:14:06] I was, I don't know where I was going.
[00:14:08] I was doing something in this weird warehouse.
[00:14:13] And I hit my toe, my big toe on my right foot on the threshold between my living room and my hallway.
[00:14:23] And I, at first, you tend to shy away from the pain, you know.
[00:14:32] You do this by swearing, by breathing, like clenching your teeth and just draw a breath.
[00:14:45] Like that.
[00:14:47] And then you make a lot of noise, you know.
[00:14:51] Ow.
[00:14:52] Damn.
[00:14:54] Hellish.
[00:14:56] Hellish.
[00:14:58] Brothels.
[00:14:59] You know, you scream stuff like that.
[00:15:02] Although I would never, I can't say I've ever yelled hellish brothels.
[00:15:09] Out loud.
[00:15:11] I can't even say that I've ever thought that combination of words before.
[00:15:17] I was trying to avoid swearing in this episode.
[00:15:21] Because, yeah, you know, the algorithms.
[00:15:25] But I think hellish brothels is really, it's safe.
[00:15:30] Although, it's far worse, I mean, as a phenomena, to imagine a brothel with a hellish atmosphere.
[00:15:43] Well, I would claim that any brothel really has a hellish atmosphere.
[00:15:49] But, okay, so now we have, I mean, now I imagine this place with a hellish atmosphere.
[00:15:55] And then comparing that phenomena, this place, this occurrence with like the F word.
[00:16:04] That's two different things, really.
[00:16:08] But, anyway, the algorithms prefer the hellish brothels over the F word.
[00:16:15] So I'm going to stick with the hellish brothels.
[00:16:21] Because, yeah, well, anyway, instead of just screaming out loud and shying away from the pain, I stayed in it.
[00:16:29] And I watched it.
[00:16:32] And that doesn't make the pain less tolerable, more tolerable.
[00:16:38] It makes the pain, the pain, you know.
[00:16:42] And, of course, the pain wasn't at such a magnitude that it was unbearable.
[00:16:50] I mean, it was very bearable.
[00:16:55] So I could indulge in, you know, staring, breaking down this experience of me having this weird experience in my toe, but also in my whole being.
[00:17:12] I mean, pain is really, it involves like the whole body, even though the pain can be local.
[00:17:18] In this case, in my toe, pain is like firsthand a physical local phenomena.
[00:17:30] But secondhand, it's like it takes my whole being into question.
[00:17:36] You know, it puts my whole being into question.
[00:17:38] Like, am I even alive?
[00:17:40] Yes, I am alive.
[00:17:41] That is like the, if I'm going to try and put a positive spin on this, then pain is the ultimate proof that I am very much alive.
[00:17:55] And it gave me sort of a rush.
[00:17:59] Now, I'm not saying that hurting yourself is a way to experience euphoria because that's not it, I think.
[00:18:10] Like, this pain was not, it wasn't a dangerous pain.
[00:18:16] It was a totally normal pain.
[00:18:19] So I could safely indulge in it.
[00:18:21] But I wouldn't say that I encourage people to experience pain for the sake of rush.
[00:18:29] Because as with any rush, you need more and more and more to experience the same level of rush.
[00:18:35] So don't do that.
[00:18:36] This is an exercise in a very small setting.
[00:18:43] But it's very, it's so interesting.
[00:18:47] Because what really is a physical experience?
[00:18:51] I mean, what really is pain?
[00:18:54] What, I mean, and when you break it down like that, it almost, or not almost, it becomes interesting.
[00:19:01] It gives me like this sensational feeling that I am an unexplored universe, you know?
[00:19:14] What is this thing that is being rushed through me?
[00:19:19] What is this thing that creates this very clear feeling of pressure and at the same time speed and heat and cold and this very intense, narrow streaks of like clarity?
[00:19:43] I guess you could say that it is.
[00:19:48] Not clarity in a sense that I understand the meaning of it all or even my place in the world or anything like that.
[00:19:56] Clarity as in the feeling, the experience itself is very clear.
[00:20:03] There is no doubt that this experience exists, you know?
[00:20:08] And it's so interesting because if you widen the circle around this a bit, then, well, all of you, all of me becomes a part of this experience.
[00:20:25] I mean, although my fingers didn't hurt when I hit my toe, my fingers are still part of this.
[00:20:34] So in a way, being alive is being in pain.
[00:20:41] And I'm not saying this to make this a depressing episode because I don't think it's a depressing thing because you have to think of pain in a wider sense than just something miserable, you know?
[00:20:56] I mean, all of your, you know, every fiber of my being are in a constant struggle with, you know, the Newton's second, what do you call it?
[00:21:17] It's the law of entropy, you know, an order that order systems will always strive towards disorder, chaos.
[00:21:33] I'm so glad I learned how to pronounce the word chaos.
[00:21:41] Maybe I'm still not doing it right.
[00:21:46] Yeah, well, so every fiber of my being is fighting entropy.
[00:21:50] And of course, keeping yourself alive, no, not alive necessarily, keeping yourself bound, you know, keeping yourself together in a universe that strives towards disorder is, of course, a painful experience.
[00:22:16] And we don't feel that pain because what could we, what can we do about it?
[00:22:22] I mean, this existence is our only alternative.
[00:22:28] We don't know anything else.
[00:22:29] But I think it's an inspiring thought to think of pain as not something that is being caused to us, but as something that is us, you know?
[00:22:45] I mean, I am pain.
[00:22:48] Being in pain is being me.
[00:22:52] And again, I need to emphasize this, I think, because otherwise you will turn this episode off, which of course is something that you're totally free to do.
[00:23:02] By the way, you don't have to listen to this.
[00:23:04] You don't have to buy into anything I say because I haven't prepared.
[00:23:09] I'm just sitting here in my podcast studio rambling as I always do.
[00:23:16] And again, the aim here is for you to fall asleep.
[00:23:23] But pain is, in this discussion, not the life-ruining experiences that pain is in a general sense.
[00:23:39] Like when I say pain, you don't think about yourself.
[00:23:42] So this is a theoretical discussion about different levels of pain, I guess.
[00:23:52] But sometimes I can feel it.
[00:23:54] Not pain like in the physical experience, pain.
[00:23:58] But I can feel that every fiber of my being is fighting, you know?
[00:24:03] Is fighting to stay organized.
[00:24:09] And as I grow older, that becomes more and more difficult since entropy, you know?
[00:24:18] And I'm not really depressed about that, although I don't, I'm no fan of, you know, entropy in terms of me.
[00:24:32] You know, I would like to stay ordered and organized throughout eternity.
[00:24:40] But it's a fascinating thought that whenever I hit my toe or hit myself with a pen on my knuckles or anything,
[00:24:47] just to experience this thing called pain and to study it,
[00:24:53] I get reminded that this is just an over-the-top illustration of what every sort of existence is like.
[00:25:09] I mean, you don't feel pain in your normal life if you're healthy.
[00:25:15] Because, well, to put it bluntly, because you're used to it, you know?
[00:25:20] You've been living in it since you were born.
[00:25:22] And again, sleepy, I'm sorry if you find this depressing.
[00:25:26] Because I really don't think that it is.
[00:25:29] I think that it gives me an opportunity to reshape my view on pain.
[00:25:44] It gives me an opportunity to embrace pain in a way.
[00:25:50] And I'm not saying embrace pain like in the common way we use the word.
[00:25:58] I'm not telling you to go out and cause yourself pain just to be more alive or whatever.
[00:26:06] Because I truly don't believe in that scenario.
[00:26:09] I'm not talking about that.
[00:26:11] I'm talking about learning to embrace the fact that being alive is being in pain,
[00:26:18] in different forms of pain, in different scenarios throughout your life.
[00:26:24] And that is indeed you being alive.
[00:26:29] And the times when you feel good, you know?
[00:26:34] That can also be a pain, you know?
[00:26:37] And pain in a positive sense, you know?
[00:26:42] Have you ever said or felt like that you're longing for someone or something so much that it hurts?
[00:26:51] That's also pain, you know?
[00:26:54] You love someone so much that it hurts.
[00:26:57] You eat something that's so good that it's actually hurting you.
[00:27:03] That's also pain, so everything is pain really.
[00:27:07] Pain is not just this thing that we shy away from and try to avoid.
[00:27:15] Pain is love, lust, longing, euphoria.
[00:27:24] Pain is also tragedy, depression, fear, anxiety, envy.
[00:27:33] It's all of that.
[00:27:35] And at its core, it's just your...
[00:27:39] The small microscopic stuff that makes you is fighting entropy.
[00:27:46] So we're castles of sand, you know?
[00:27:52] But as a contrast, we're different from sand.
[00:28:04] Our microscopic parts are different from sand because sand consists of grains of sand, like rocks, really.
[00:28:17] But we consist of cells being built up by atoms.
[00:28:27] And these cells...
[00:28:30] Yeah, well, rocks are also built up, built by atoms.
[00:28:35] But these cells are living organisms.
[00:28:39] And they are trying their best to stay consistent.
[00:28:45] And that is what makes you, you.
[00:28:47] But as with sand castles, we change, you know?
[00:28:59] We differ.
[00:29:01] We're like waves in the ocean, really.
[00:29:03] What makes you, what makes me, will then make something else.
[00:29:08] And that's beautiful.
[00:29:09] And I can talk a whole lot about that.
[00:29:12] But that tends to scare some people.
[00:29:15] And I get it.
[00:29:18] It's weird to think of this thing that's the only thing you know.
[00:29:24] You, me.
[00:29:27] That it's not going to be forever.
[00:29:29] And that's, of course, a weird, scary thing to think of.
[00:29:36] But I think that...
[00:29:40] And that's why I talked about this early on.
[00:29:43] That there's no need to feel scared in this weird warehouse, in this weird supermarket, where we don't seem to ever, you know, know what we're doing here.
[00:29:55] Or even what we're supposed to do in here.
[00:29:59] But there's no need to be scared because this is all we are.
[00:30:06] This is everything we are.
[00:30:10] And in a sense, the warehouse is me.
[00:30:14] So why would I fear me, you know?
[00:30:22] Why should I shy away from the stuff that hurts?
[00:30:26] Because the stuff that hurts is me.
[00:30:33] Although, of course, it's okay to shy away from pain or from fear or from any negativity or stuff that scares you or hurts you or bothers you in any way.
[00:30:43] But you can also, well, at least in some cases, indulge in just studying the thing that scares you.
[00:30:53] I think it was Lemony Snicket who wrote in one of the books.
[00:30:58] I don't remember which one.
[00:31:00] But it's about darkness.
[00:31:02] And there's this little boy and he's afraid of the dark.
[00:31:05] And then he has a conversation with the darkness.
[00:31:13] And there's this sentence, I don't know the English translation here if it's correct from the original.
[00:31:24] But you are afraid of the dark and that's okay because the dark is not afraid of you.
[00:31:32] And it wants to be with you.
[00:31:34] It wants to be around you.
[00:31:36] It wants to be, it wants to surround you.
[00:31:44] And it's not a threat.
[00:31:47] It's not a, it's not a dark promise written in blood somewhere.
[00:31:56] It's the fact that pain and darkness is not afraid of you, nor should you be afraid of it.
[00:32:06] I mean, that this is easier said than done.
[00:32:09] So much easier said than actually done.
[00:32:12] And of course, pain will always be pain.
[00:32:15] And darkness will always be darkness.
[00:32:17] But for me right now, sitting in this chair, having a cozy time, this is a very comforting way of looking at the darkness.
[00:32:34] I mean, the world around you, or at least around me right now, feels so uncertain.
[00:32:42] And I'm scared sometimes.
[00:32:44] And then I have to remind myself that these are two different things.
[00:32:55] So like awful things happen in the world, will happen, can happen.
[00:33:01] On the other side, the other side of the spectrum, good things, wonderful things will happen, happens, can happen.
[00:33:12] And this is a constant.
[00:33:15] This is something that doesn't really change.
[00:33:20] So depending on where you are, from which angle you are looking at stuff, the world will be dark or bright.
[00:33:32] And so that's, because that's the thing that tends to worry us, you know.
[00:33:37] Oh my God, what's going to, what is the American election going to be like, you know?
[00:33:44] Will there be light or will there be darkness?
[00:33:47] You know, that's how we tend to look at it right now.
[00:33:55] And this doesn't have to do just with the US.
[00:33:58] Let me just say that, that this concerns all of the world.
[00:34:02] It's not just the Americans.
[00:34:06] Sometimes I get emails when I talk about American politics and express concern, you know.
[00:34:15] Then I get emails from listeners in the US telling me to stop worrying so much about other countries' policies and politics and focus on my own.
[00:34:29] And I don't, I rarely respond to those things.
[00:34:36] I mean, I can worry about whatever I want to worry about.
[00:34:40] It's up to me, really.
[00:34:42] It's my loss.
[00:34:43] I get to decide what I'm scared of.
[00:34:47] But then again, American politics concerns us all.
[00:34:52] You guys are the largest, richest country in the world.
[00:34:56] And what you do impacts us so much, you know.
[00:35:02] It's not just entertainment.
[00:35:06] So in a way, it's a responsibility for every person on planet Earth.
[00:35:13] You know, the voting process in America.
[00:35:16] And I mean, you could say this about other countries as well.
[00:35:19] So I'm not going to try to point out any specific citizens here.
[00:35:24] Yeah, that was a side note.
[00:35:27] Sorry.
[00:35:31] But I can look at the world and I can feel the waves of anguish.
[00:35:36] You know, how different scenarios scare me.
[00:35:42] And those scenarios, I can't really influence them.
[00:35:47] In terms of the American election, I can't influence them at all.
[00:35:52] But in other terms, maybe I may have some influence.
[00:35:58] But the stuff that really scares me is about the future almost always.
[00:36:04] And I can't really change.
[00:36:06] I can't really decide what the future will be like.
[00:36:12] So to me, this becomes two different things.
[00:36:21] Two different platforms, so to speak.
[00:36:25] Like the factual stuff.
[00:36:29] Like someone will start a war somewhere.
[00:36:34] That's a factual stuff.
[00:36:37] That's a factual thing.
[00:36:40] You can't argue with that fact.
[00:36:45] If there's a war, then there's a war.
[00:36:50] But I can't control what that war does to me.
[00:36:58] So I'm not telling you to just let it go and stop worrying.
[00:37:05] And don't worry, be happy.
[00:37:06] And everything will turn out fine.
[00:37:09] I'm telling you to embrace whatever pain that very fact is causing you.
[00:37:17] To do what you can about any given situation.
[00:37:23] And then just watch and live with the rest of it.
[00:37:28] Because that is also you.
[00:37:31] The pain that is influencing you.
[00:37:34] The pain that goes through your body when you worry about some fact or non-fact in the world.
[00:37:42] Is also you.
[00:37:44] I think one mistake that we do as humans.
[00:37:51] Is that we tend to watch negative stuff.
[00:37:55] Negative experiences, emotions in ourselves.
[00:38:01] As not us.
[00:38:04] But it is, you know.
[00:38:10] Scared Henrik is also Henrik.
[00:38:13] And scared Henrik needs to be.
[00:38:17] Maybe happy, sufficient Henrik.
[00:38:21] Needs to sit with scared Henrik.
[00:38:24] And accept him for whom he is.
[00:38:27] And listen to his thoughts.
[00:38:30] Without shying away from them.
[00:38:33] And telling him that it's ridiculous.
[00:38:36] Or trying to, you know.
[00:38:41] Distract scared Henrik.
[00:38:43] Or drown him in anything.
[00:38:47] Entertainment.
[00:38:47] Or any substance.
[00:38:55] So.
[00:38:57] When I'm scared of.
[00:38:59] For instance.
[00:39:01] An upcoming elections.
[00:39:03] With.
[00:39:05] Well let's just say.
[00:39:06] Different implications.
[00:39:10] Then.
[00:39:10] I can.
[00:39:17] Think of that as.
[00:39:19] Factual.
[00:39:20] And.
[00:39:22] When it comes to factual.
[00:39:23] I can't.
[00:39:25] Do anything about it.
[00:39:26] In this particular case.
[00:39:28] I can't do anything about it.
[00:39:29] When the time comes.
[00:39:30] Maybe I can.
[00:39:31] You know.
[00:39:32] I can use my voice.
[00:39:33] To say stuff.
[00:39:34] You know.
[00:39:35] I can.
[00:39:36] Whatever.
[00:39:37] But.
[00:39:38] In a factual.
[00:39:40] Sense.
[00:39:40] I cannot change.
[00:39:43] What's going to happen.
[00:39:47] But.
[00:39:48] In an.
[00:39:50] Unfactual.
[00:39:50] Sense.
[00:39:51] When it comes to.
[00:39:53] What I feel.
[00:39:55] What I experience.
[00:39:58] I can't change the way.
[00:40:00] I think about.
[00:40:02] That.
[00:40:04] As far as me.
[00:40:06] Goes.
[00:40:06] In my own universe.
[00:40:08] I can sit down with me.
[00:40:12] And I can be with my worry.
[00:40:14] And I can be with my pain.
[00:40:17] As the same.
[00:40:20] In the same.
[00:40:21] In the same way.
[00:40:22] That I can be with my.
[00:40:25] Joy.
[00:40:26] My lust.
[00:40:26] My love.
[00:40:29] You know.
[00:40:34] And.
[00:40:35] I'm not sure that this is.
[00:40:40] You know.
[00:40:42] Appliable to.
[00:40:45] Life in a practical sense.
[00:40:47] I mean.
[00:40:48] I feel what I.
[00:40:49] What I feel.
[00:40:50] And.
[00:40:51] Discomfort.
[00:40:52] Is.
[00:40:53] Discomfort.
[00:40:55] But it makes it easier.
[00:40:56] Within me.
[00:40:58] And maybe that.
[00:41:00] Also.
[00:41:03] Influences.
[00:41:04] The world.
[00:41:05] Around me.
[00:41:05] In a way.
[00:41:06] The way I live my life.
[00:41:10] So I guess this is why I say in the beginning.
[00:41:13] It is what it is.
[00:41:14] What happens.
[00:41:14] Happens.
[00:41:15] It's not.
[00:41:17] Me.
[00:41:17] Encouraging.
[00:41:18] Encouraging you to.
[00:41:20] Stop caring.
[00:41:21] Or just.
[00:41:22] Hanging on.
[00:41:23] You know.
[00:41:24] Just.
[00:41:25] Let it be.
[00:41:27] I'm not saying that you shouldn't try to influence stuff.
[00:41:31] I'm not saying that you should just.
[00:41:34] Watch the world go by.
[00:41:36] Without doing anything.
[00:41:39] Quite the opposite.
[00:41:41] There's always stuff that you can do.
[00:41:43] But why waste energy on identifying.
[00:41:48] And.
[00:41:49] You know.
[00:41:54] Mismatching the two.
[00:41:56] You know.
[00:41:58] Thinking that.
[00:41:59] The facts are your feelings.
[00:42:01] And the feelings are your facts.
[00:42:06] You know.
[00:42:06] You know.
[00:42:08] One thing.
[00:42:09] You can't change.
[00:42:11] The other thing you can change.
[00:42:12] And within that.
[00:42:13] You can actually change stuff.
[00:42:15] That you normally can't change.
[00:42:18] You know.
[00:42:23] Okay.
[00:42:24] So.
[00:42:25] I.
[00:42:25] I.
[00:42:26] I feel it necessary to point out.
[00:42:28] That I really don't know what I'm talking about.
[00:42:32] I just improvise.
[00:42:35] And say whatever comes to mind.
[00:42:38] Like.
[00:42:39] I could.
[00:42:41] All of a sudden.
[00:42:43] Randomly started talking about bananas.
[00:42:46] Because that's also.
[00:42:48] A thing.
[00:42:48] You know.
[00:42:52] My daughter asked me the other day.
[00:42:55] No.
[00:42:56] This.
[00:42:56] This wasn't the other day.
[00:42:58] This was like.
[00:42:59] Five or six years ago.
[00:43:00] Why.
[00:43:01] Why.
[00:43:02] Why do I keep.
[00:43:03] Doing that.
[00:43:04] It's just.
[00:43:05] You know.
[00:43:06] Anecdotical.
[00:43:07] That you say.
[00:43:08] Stuff like that.
[00:43:09] The other day.
[00:43:10] Because it's.
[00:43:11] It gives the impression that.
[00:43:13] This is an actual thing that.
[00:43:15] Just happened.
[00:43:16] And.
[00:43:17] It gives the sense of truth.
[00:43:19] And.
[00:43:21] That I'm genuine.
[00:43:22] You know.
[00:43:22] Genuine.
[00:43:23] Genuine.
[00:43:24] Genuine.
[00:43:27] But I can be that.
[00:43:28] And still tell you a story.
[00:43:30] That occurred.
[00:43:31] Occurred six years ago.
[00:43:33] So she.
[00:43:34] She asked me.
[00:43:36] Why are bananas.
[00:43:40] Bent.
[00:43:43] Why.
[00:43:44] If they hang.
[00:43:46] From.
[00:43:47] Like.
[00:43:47] A branch.
[00:43:49] They.
[00:43:50] They.
[00:43:50] They go together in.
[00:43:52] In.
[00:43:52] What do you call it?
[00:43:53] Groups.
[00:43:54] They.
[00:43:55] Why.
[00:43:56] Aren't they.
[00:43:58] Straight.
[00:43:58] Why haven't gravity made them.
[00:44:01] Totally straight.
[00:44:04] Uh.
[00:44:06] Why.
[00:44:08] If.
[00:44:08] I mean.
[00:44:09] If gravity.
[00:44:10] Got to decide.
[00:44:11] Everything.
[00:44:12] Then.
[00:44:13] All bananas.
[00:44:14] Would be totally straight.
[00:44:15] And not curved.
[00:44:16] You know.
[00:44:17] But they are not.
[00:44:18] Why.
[00:44:19] And at first.
[00:44:20] I.
[00:44:22] I mean.
[00:44:22] That's the beauty of having.
[00:44:24] Children.
[00:44:25] That you get asked.
[00:44:27] Stuff that you.
[00:44:29] You haven't really.
[00:44:31] Thought about.
[00:44:32] Like.
[00:44:32] Ever.
[00:44:34] It's not just the.
[00:44:35] The classical question.
[00:44:37] Why is there money.
[00:44:39] Why is there.
[00:44:40] A finite number of.
[00:44:43] Currency.
[00:44:44] In the world.
[00:44:45] Why can't.
[00:44:45] We just use rocks.
[00:44:47] And then everyone would be rich.
[00:44:48] You know.
[00:44:49] That's a.
[00:44:50] I mean.
[00:44:51] I remember asking that question myself.
[00:44:56] And.
[00:44:56] I mean.
[00:44:57] I still don't really know the answer.
[00:45:00] Why can't we just.
[00:45:01] Decide that.
[00:45:03] Because.
[00:45:04] I remember this question being so present in me.
[00:45:07] As a child.
[00:45:08] Because.
[00:45:09] I mean.
[00:45:10] It's true.
[00:45:11] We have decided that.
[00:45:13] These.
[00:45:13] Types of.
[00:45:14] Well.
[00:45:15] Initially.
[00:45:17] These things.
[00:45:18] These papers.
[00:45:19] And these.
[00:45:20] Metallic.
[00:45:21] Round.
[00:45:22] Coins.
[00:45:22] Are worth something.
[00:45:24] But nowadays.
[00:45:24] It's just.
[00:45:27] You know.
[00:45:28] Code.
[00:45:28] So.
[00:45:29] We have decided that this is.
[00:45:33] Worth something.
[00:45:34] It's just a story tale.
[00:45:36] It's just imagination.
[00:45:37] We could.
[00:45:37] Just.
[00:45:39] Equally.
[00:45:39] Just decide that.
[00:45:41] We need to.
[00:45:42] We trade with grass.
[00:45:44] And then everyone would be.
[00:45:45] Like a millionaire.
[00:45:47] But I guess it has to do with devaluation.
[00:45:51] That if we were all.
[00:45:53] Billionaires.
[00:45:54] Well.
[00:45:55] Everything would turn out to be very.
[00:45:57] Very very expensive.
[00:45:58] And then.
[00:46:00] We would be back to square one.
[00:46:02] I guess.
[00:46:04] So.
[00:46:05] A piece of gum.
[00:46:06] Will cost like.
[00:46:07] Forty millions.
[00:46:09] Forty gogoplex grass.
[00:46:12] You know.
[00:46:13] And no one would have that amount of money.
[00:46:15] And we would all.
[00:46:16] We wouldn't be able to buy gum.
[00:46:18] Which would be a disaster.
[00:46:22] Well.
[00:46:23] Anyway.
[00:46:23] I had to think about this for a while.
[00:46:25] But then of course.
[00:46:27] The answer.
[00:46:28] Must be that.
[00:46:29] Since they grow.
[00:46:30] From this single.
[00:46:33] Place.
[00:46:34] On the branch.
[00:46:35] I don't know what you call it.
[00:46:36] The group of bananas.
[00:46:40] The.
[00:46:41] Oh God.
[00:46:43] This is.
[00:46:43] This is why.
[00:46:45] I hesitated for so long.
[00:46:46] To do this podcast in English.
[00:46:48] Because I.
[00:46:48] I don't have the word.
[00:46:50] For.
[00:46:51] What we in Swedish.
[00:46:52] Would call.
[00:46:53] Klase.
[00:46:56] A group of bananas.
[00:46:59] So.
[00:47:01] Anyway.
[00:47:01] The reason that they are curved.
[00:47:03] Is because they grow.
[00:47:04] Around each other.
[00:47:06] On.
[00:47:06] On top of each other.
[00:47:10] But why.
[00:47:11] And I still don't know this.
[00:47:13] Why is.
[00:47:14] There is.
[00:47:15] Why isn't there a single.
[00:47:17] Totally straight banana.
[00:47:20] Well maybe it is.
[00:47:22] I don't know anything about bananas.
[00:47:24] What.
[00:47:25] What.
[00:47:25] Why.
[00:47:26] Why.
[00:47:26] Why am I even talking about this.
[00:47:29] Yeah I told you that I was going to randomly start talking about bananas.
[00:47:33] So the middle banana should be totally straight.
[00:47:38] Growing.
[00:47:39] Like.
[00:47:39] From the.
[00:47:40] Center of the group of bananas.
[00:47:42] So.
[00:47:43] That it doesn't have to curve around anything.
[00:47:46] But I.
[00:47:47] Don't think that I've ever seen a.
[00:47:49] Totally straight.
[00:47:50] Banana.
[00:47:52] But then again.
[00:47:53] Nothing is totally straight.
[00:47:58] You can put that on a t-shirt.
[00:48:00] And wear at.
[00:48:01] Like.
[00:48:02] Any.
[00:48:04] Venue.
[00:48:05] Nothing is totally straight.
[00:48:08] Fall asleep with Henrik.
[00:48:10] But the same goes with anything that grows really.
[00:48:13] Nothing is.
[00:48:17] Totally.
[00:48:18] Absolutely.
[00:48:19] Straight.
[00:48:20] So but the other bananas.
[00:48:22] They have to.
[00:48:23] Work together to grow around.
[00:48:25] On top of each other.
[00:48:26] And that is why they are bent.
[00:48:28] In different.
[00:48:29] Angles.
[00:48:34] Yeah.
[00:48:35] So now you know.
[00:48:37] If you haven't.
[00:48:38] Before.
[00:48:40] But of course you had.
[00:48:41] Because I know that you have been.
[00:48:43] You know.
[00:48:44] You have a doctorate in physics.
[00:48:47] Sleepy.
[00:48:47] I know that you do.
[00:48:49] I have.
[00:48:50] Like this.
[00:48:52] Big community of physicists.
[00:48:55] Listening to fall asleep with Henrik.
[00:48:58] Especially.
[00:48:59] People with the doctor's degrees in.
[00:49:03] In.
[00:49:04] Theoretical physicists.
[00:49:06] Sarah.
[00:49:07] Theoretical.
[00:49:08] Phys.
[00:49:08] Phys.
[00:49:10] Well.
[00:49:11] Oh god.
[00:49:12] I am.
[00:49:15] Physicism.
[00:49:16] What do you call it?
[00:49:19] Physics.
[00:49:20] Sorry.
[00:49:21] Theoretical physics.
[00:49:22] That's.
[00:49:24] A lie.
[00:49:25] I don't think.
[00:49:26] I have a single.
[00:49:28] Theoretical.
[00:49:28] Physicist.
[00:49:29] Listening to this podcast.
[00:49:31] Just yet.
[00:49:31] But I would love for you.
[00:49:33] If you are one.
[00:49:34] In the future.
[00:49:36] Or right now.
[00:49:37] Or in the past.
[00:49:38] Maybe.
[00:49:39] If it's even possible.
[00:49:41] To some.
[00:49:42] To do some sort of a.
[00:49:45] Quantum.
[00:49:46] Entanglement.
[00:49:47] Time travel.
[00:49:48] Thing.
[00:49:49] Then please reach out to me.
[00:49:50] And tell me.
[00:49:51] Whether or not you listen to this.
[00:49:52] In the future.
[00:49:53] Or in the past.
[00:49:54] Or.
[00:49:56] In my present.
[00:49:57] Which will.
[00:49:58] Undoubtedly.
[00:49:59] Be your future.
[00:50:01] Right now.
[00:50:02] But it will be your present.
[00:50:04] But then it will be my future.
[00:50:06] And.
[00:50:07] My voice will be your past.
[00:50:12] Isn't that weird?
[00:50:15] I.
[00:50:15] I return to this again.
[00:50:17] And again.
[00:50:17] And again.
[00:50:18] I guess I have a.
[00:50:18] I guess I have a.
[00:50:20] Like.
[00:50:22] I really.
[00:50:25] I really enjoy the thought.
[00:50:27] That I'm doing.
[00:50:28] Some sort of.
[00:50:30] You know.
[00:50:31] Message in a bottle.
[00:50:32] Thing.
[00:50:34] I record something.
[00:50:36] In my now.
[00:50:37] But when you listen to it.
[00:50:39] In a few hours.
[00:50:41] Then you will.
[00:50:42] Experience.
[00:50:43] My voice.
[00:50:44] In your now.
[00:50:45] But.
[00:50:46] The.
[00:50:47] The.
[00:50:48] Very sound waves.
[00:50:49] That make up my.
[00:50:51] Voice.
[00:50:52] As we speak.
[00:50:52] And make this digital imprint.
[00:50:54] In my device.
[00:50:56] Those are historical documents.
[00:50:59] Those are relics.
[00:51:01] Ancient relics.
[00:51:03] That.
[00:51:04] Isn't really.
[00:51:06] You know.
[00:51:10] They're not even real anymore.
[00:51:13] I have changed.
[00:51:15] I have changed.
[00:51:15] The world has.
[00:51:16] Changed.
[00:51:18] The air.
[00:51:19] That carries my voice.
[00:51:21] The waves.
[00:51:23] That.
[00:51:23] Is being produced.
[00:51:24] In this air.
[00:51:25] In front of my mouth.
[00:51:27] Between my mouth.
[00:51:28] And my microphone.
[00:51:29] One.
[00:51:30] Like one decimeter apart.
[00:51:32] They are long gone.
[00:51:35] And it's also a geographical.
[00:51:39] Travel.
[00:51:41] Because wherever you are in the world.
[00:51:43] You and I are.
[00:51:44] Apart.
[00:51:46] We're different.
[00:51:47] And not just.
[00:51:48] In who we are.
[00:51:51] And how we're.
[00:51:52] Built.
[00:51:53] What we consist of.
[00:51:55] Like individual atoms.
[00:51:57] Different individual atoms.
[00:52:00] But we're also.
[00:52:01] Apart.
[00:52:03] By.
[00:52:04] Kilometers.
[00:52:05] Miles.
[00:52:09] You know.
[00:52:12] You could be on the other side of the planet.
[00:52:15] And.
[00:52:16] You could be on a different time schedule than I am.
[00:52:20] And also.
[00:52:21] You are in my future.
[00:52:23] So I'm talking to you.
[00:52:24] Unknown.
[00:52:25] Sleepy.
[00:52:25] In my own future.
[00:52:27] And that's so cool.
[00:52:29] I think I've.
[00:52:30] I'm never going to get used to.
[00:52:31] The fact that being alive.
[00:52:34] Being in this.
[00:52:36] Weird.
[00:52:37] Supermarket.
[00:52:39] Aimlessly.
[00:52:40] Wandering the aisles.
[00:52:42] Putting random stuff in my cart.
[00:52:46] It's just.
[00:52:49] So weird.
[00:52:50] And so magical.
[00:52:51] And so.
[00:52:52] Interesting.
[00:52:54] And I never want to stop.
[00:52:56] Wondering.
[00:52:56] I want to be this.
[00:52:59] Curious.
[00:53:00] My whole life.
[00:53:02] I don't ever want to sit on a.
[00:53:06] Drivable lawn mower.
[00:53:08] Mower.
[00:53:08] In the future.
[00:53:10] Just.
[00:53:11] Drinking beer.
[00:53:12] And just.
[00:53:13] Complaining about.
[00:53:14] The government.
[00:53:15] You know.
[00:53:15] I don't ever want to look at young people.
[00:53:20] And feel that.
[00:53:22] Sting.
[00:53:23] You know.
[00:53:24] That used to be me.
[00:53:26] Now I'm just old.
[00:53:29] Now I'm just.
[00:53:30] I don't matter anymore.
[00:53:32] The only thing that matters is.
[00:53:35] Keeping my.
[00:53:36] Lawn.
[00:53:39] Clean and.
[00:53:40] Sharp.
[00:53:41] As a whistle.
[00:53:45] I.
[00:53:47] Because.
[00:53:48] And that's the sad part.
[00:53:50] I guess.
[00:53:51] Because I think that I never.
[00:53:53] I'll never really.
[00:53:55] Fully.
[00:53:55] Truly.
[00:53:56] Understand.
[00:53:57] What this is all about.
[00:53:58] But at the same time.
[00:54:00] And this gives.
[00:54:01] Gives me.
[00:54:03] Like.
[00:54:09] This.
[00:54:10] I get disgruntled.
[00:54:13] By this.
[00:54:16] But at the same time.
[00:54:17] It's amazing that.
[00:54:19] I'm never going to find out.
[00:54:21] Anything.
[00:54:22] Really.
[00:54:23] Truly.
[00:54:24] Well maybe some stuff.
[00:54:25] You know.
[00:54:26] And.
[00:54:27] I guess that's also.
[00:54:28] One of the things that I.
[00:54:30] Enjoy about the universe.
[00:54:31] Is that.
[00:54:34] What I.
[00:54:35] See as.
[00:54:37] Subjective.
[00:54:39] Truths.
[00:54:39] About the world.
[00:54:41] Change.
[00:54:42] And maybe.
[00:54:44] Maybe.
[00:54:46] There is no such thing.
[00:54:48] As an objective.
[00:54:49] Truth.
[00:54:52] I mean.
[00:54:52] We all have to agree.
[00:54:54] On certain things.
[00:54:55] But maybe.
[00:54:56] If you look at.
[00:54:57] Cosmos.
[00:54:58] Like in.
[00:54:59] The grander scheme.
[00:55:01] The grander sense of it all.
[00:55:03] Maybe nothing really is.
[00:55:05] True.
[00:55:06] At least in a.
[00:55:06] In the sense that we use.
[00:55:08] Truths as this.
[00:55:12] Everlasting.
[00:55:13] Locked in.
[00:55:16] Everpresent.
[00:55:18] Thing.
[00:55:21] Maybe the whole universe.
[00:55:23] Maybe.
[00:55:23] All of existence.
[00:55:26] Is.
[00:55:26] Is truly like a wave.
[00:55:28] And.
[00:55:30] That.
[00:55:31] Gives me great.
[00:55:32] Comfort.
[00:55:33] Because then.
[00:55:33] I can do.
[00:55:34] Whatever I want.
[00:55:35] With my existence.
[00:55:37] And.
[00:55:38] Thinking of myself.
[00:55:39] As.
[00:55:43] A creature of pain.
[00:55:45] Not.
[00:55:45] In a depressing way.
[00:55:48] I think of myself.
[00:55:49] As more.
[00:55:50] Built.
[00:55:51] Built.
[00:55:51] To experience the world.
[00:55:54] The ever-changing world.
[00:55:57] In a true and literal sense.
[00:56:00] Being built by pain.
[00:56:02] I can travel through.
[00:56:03] So many states.
[00:56:04] And still.
[00:56:05] Keep me.
[00:56:06] In the process.
[00:56:08] And.
[00:56:10] That's truly.
[00:56:14] A marvelous thing.
[00:56:15] To experience.
[00:56:20] So.
[00:56:22] When I'm done with this.
[00:56:23] I'm going to do this.
[00:56:24] Little exercise.
[00:56:25] With my pen.
[00:56:26] I'm going to hit my.
[00:56:28] Knuckles with it.
[00:56:29] Just.
[00:56:30] A tiny bit.
[00:56:32] So that it feels.
[00:56:34] A bit.
[00:56:35] More.
[00:56:36] More.
[00:56:36] Than.
[00:56:37] Is comfortable.
[00:56:38] But not.
[00:56:39] Too much.
[00:56:40] Because then it.
[00:56:41] Gets destroyed.
[00:56:42] Because I will get.
[00:56:42] Overwhelmed.
[00:56:43] By the.
[00:56:44] Pain.
[00:56:44] Or whatever.
[00:56:45] I'm just going to do this.
[00:56:47] As a little gift.
[00:56:48] To myself.
[00:56:51] I'm going to.
[00:56:52] Hit myself on the knuckles.
[00:56:53] And I'm going to watch.
[00:56:56] The experience.
[00:56:57] Unfold.
[00:56:58] And fade away.
[00:57:00] And I'm going to try and look.
[00:57:02] For it.
[00:57:03] Even when it's gone.
[00:57:05] I'm going to visit the place.
[00:57:07] Where I felt.
[00:57:08] The most pain.
[00:57:10] And I'm going to see.
[00:57:12] If there are any remnants.
[00:57:15] Of the experience.
[00:57:18] At the scene of the crime.
[00:57:21] Not visually.
[00:57:24] Just.
[00:57:25] Pure.
[00:57:28] Experience.
[00:57:30] How does it feel?
[00:57:32] What is pain?
[00:57:33] Pain.
[00:57:34] Because in a wider sense.
[00:57:37] What pain is.
[00:57:40] Is.
[00:57:41] Me.
[00:57:45] Okay.
[00:57:46] I guess I'm done.
[00:57:48] Well.
[00:57:49] Not done.
[00:57:50] As in.
[00:57:50] I'm done with this podcast.
[00:57:52] Well.
[00:57:53] That might be.
[00:57:54] What you say.
[00:57:55] I don't know.
[00:57:57] If you're new to this.
[00:57:59] And.
[00:58:00] You have listened.
[00:58:01] This far.
[00:58:02] And.
[00:58:03] You haven't fell asleep.
[00:58:04] Deep.
[00:58:05] And.
[00:58:06] You don't know what to think.
[00:58:08] About this.
[00:58:09] Then.
[00:58:09] Let me just say that.
[00:58:11] That's.
[00:58:12] Also.
[00:58:13] Okay.
[00:58:14] I'm not always doing this.
[00:58:16] Very deep exercises in.
[00:58:19] Existentialism.
[00:58:20] When.
[00:58:21] I am.
[00:58:22] Talking about.
[00:58:23] Random stuff.
[00:58:24] Like for instance.
[00:58:25] Bananas.
[00:58:26] I don't.
[00:58:28] Necessarily talk about.
[00:58:29] Bananas all the time either.
[00:58:31] I talk about.
[00:58:33] Well.
[00:58:33] And here's the.
[00:58:34] Entire list.
[00:58:35] I talk about.
[00:58:37] Gums.
[00:58:43] Hellish brothels.
[00:58:47] People.
[00:58:48] Cars.
[00:58:49] Bananas.
[00:58:51] Cosmos.
[00:58:52] Cosmos.
[00:58:53] Cosmos.
[00:58:56] I talk about.
[00:58:59] The Crete.
[00:59:01] Period.
[00:59:03] And.
[00:59:04] Crete the island.
[00:59:05] And I talk about.
[00:59:08] Fidget spinners.
[00:59:10] Blackouts.
[00:59:12] Harvest.
[00:59:16] Guys.
[00:59:19] Smurfs.
[00:59:22] Trampolines.
[00:59:26] Misalignment.
[00:59:29] Alignment.
[00:59:32] Bart Simpson.
[00:59:35] Toblerone.
[00:59:37] Fidget spinners.
[00:59:38] Again.
[00:59:39] Because I talk a lot.
[00:59:40] About fidget spinners.
[00:59:41] Once actually.
[00:59:42] I bought.
[00:59:43] This was.
[00:59:43] The other day.
[00:59:44] But.
[00:59:45] No.
[00:59:45] It wasn't.
[00:59:46] It was like.
[00:59:48] Almost.
[00:59:50] Almost.
[00:59:51] 10 years ago.
[00:59:51] I bought.
[00:59:53] Two fidget spinners.
[00:59:54] For my daughter.
[00:59:55] In a.
[00:59:55] Northern.
[00:59:56] Swedish town.
[00:59:57] When I was on tour.
[00:59:59] And.
[00:59:59] I forgot them in the store.
[01:00:02] And.
[01:00:04] That's plagued me.
[01:00:05] Ever since.
[01:00:06] Because I really hate.
[01:00:07] To forget stuff.
[01:00:08] And.
[01:00:09] Sometimes that can hurt me so much.
[01:00:12] Thinking about those.
[01:00:13] These fidget spinners.
[01:00:14] Just laying there.
[01:00:15] Not.
[01:00:16] Ever being given.
[01:00:18] To my daughter.
[01:00:19] And.
[01:00:20] She never got to know.
[01:00:21] That I bought them anyway.
[01:00:22] So it's okay.
[01:00:24] And nowadays.
[01:00:25] Who wants a fidget spinner?
[01:00:26] She would look at me.
[01:00:27] With.
[01:00:28] Contempt.
[01:00:28] In her eyes.
[01:00:29] If I tried to.
[01:00:30] Pass that on to her.
[01:00:33] So forget about the fidget spinners.
[01:00:36] And.
[01:00:37] If you want any sense moral.
[01:00:39] To this episode.
[01:00:40] I would like to.
[01:00:41] Just present it.
[01:00:42] Right.
[01:00:42] Up front now.
[01:00:43] So you don't have to think about it anymore.
[01:00:45] And it's that.
[01:00:47] Fidget spinners.
[01:00:48] Are.
[01:00:49] So.
[01:00:51] 2011.
[01:00:54] And.
[01:00:55] With that said.
[01:00:56] Without further ado.
[01:00:58] I bid you.
[01:01:00] Dear.
[01:01:01] Beloved.
[01:01:02] Sleepy.
[01:01:03] Good night.
[01:01:05] Ish.