Delilah is living a very slow life

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[00:00:24] Hi and welcome to Fall asleep with Henrik.

[00:00:28] I'm Henrik and you are Sleepy and it is what it is, what happens, happens.

[00:00:42] And right now there's nothing we can do so let's go.

[00:00:54] Hi Sleepy, hi!

[00:01:00] So first of all welcome to another episode of Fall asleep with Henrik,

[00:01:05] the podcast that you don't really have to listen to if you don't want necessarily.

[00:01:13] I'm just gonna talk and I don't prepare anything in advance

[00:01:17] and I'm not supposed to either because it is what it is.

[00:01:28] So you will hear whatever, you know, I will just talk

[00:01:36] and you can use me either way you see fit, you can just put me on in the background

[00:01:45] or you can listen actively.

[00:01:48] The main purpose is for me to help you relax, to be your mind,

[00:01:56] your messy break dancing mind for a while.

[00:02:03] But it can go either way.

[00:02:06] Some people listen to me and find me entertaining and consume me while awake

[00:02:13] and that's okay too I guess.

[00:02:17] My name is Henrik and I am a Swedish actor and podcaster

[00:02:22] who is now making my shaky little entrance on the international stage.

[00:02:31] So with that said I am not fluently English speaking

[00:02:35] and as you may tell from my dialect, from my accent,

[00:02:41] I'm well I couldn't pass for an Englishman even if they paid me to do it I guess.

[00:02:49] But it's okay because the world is a big place

[00:02:54] and I have this belief that there is something in this very modest communication

[00:03:04] that I'm trying to pull off here that applies to everyone regardless of origin.

[00:03:14] So the only thing that's really important here is that you at least understand

[00:03:21] some of what I say, maybe not everything.

[00:03:29] You can follow me on all social media and please do if you want to know more about me.

[00:03:38] I have English speaking accounts and Swedish speaking accounts on YouthTube

[00:03:46] which is the modern word for YouTube.

[00:03:51] And TikTok and Instagram and all that.

[00:03:55] I am really tired of Instagram.

[00:04:00] I feel like all we do as content creators on social media

[00:04:07] is we listen to the big companies that tells us what to do

[00:04:12] and we forget the fact that what they are really doing is that they are training us to be their perfect salesman.

[00:04:21] It really annoys me because as a somewhat major creator here in Sweden at least

[00:04:29] I get contacted and praised like from the big companies themselves.

[00:04:37] They say oh you're so important, you're really important to us.

[00:04:40] We want you to be a part of this network and that network.

[00:04:44] And of course you get flattered and you sit on these meetings and you feel like you're part of something great

[00:04:50] because that's really the thing that they're really selling to us creators

[00:04:55] like we're a part of something great.

[00:04:59] But then there's this sub-stream in the communication

[00:05:04] and that's what this thing is all about really.

[00:05:11] I am being trained to be the perfect ad salesman for a huge international company.

[00:05:21] And this is why I'm doing this podcast.

[00:05:24] I know that I am also with this material,

[00:05:32] I'm in need of ads to provide me with an income.

[00:05:37] But I would, to be honest with you, prefer if that wasn't necessary.

[00:05:41] I would love to be on my own legs, on my own economic bones,

[00:05:50] my own economic bone structure.

[00:05:55] But sadly that's not the reality.

[00:05:58] Maybe one day in the future I will be totally independent and not reliable,

[00:06:06] not be so keen on relying on ads and sponsorships.

[00:06:19] But until that day comes you'll have to take the bad with the good I guess.

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[00:07:00] Sometimes I get emails, angry emails from people who says that

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[00:07:13] but yet you do and I can assure you that I don't.

[00:07:18] When that happens it's a freak of technical nature

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[00:07:42] So please check that you're listening to you.

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[00:08:39] Okay, so I'm not supposed really to talk about

[00:08:48] I'm not really supposed to talk about all that technical stuff

[00:08:54] or maybe I am, I mean I don't have any rules.

[00:09:01] The only rule I have when providing you with my questionable content

[00:09:07] is to try and keep my voice consistent.

[00:09:14] So sometimes I burst into laughter because I really enjoy doing this.

[00:09:21] It's fun and that may be a breach of contract in a way

[00:09:28] but other than that I don't really do any big voice changing things

[00:09:36] so I want you to rely, I want you to be able to rely on my voice being consistent

[00:09:44] with a few interruptions maybe

[00:09:47] but I won't do any dialects or singing or screaming

[00:09:52] or no jingles or stingers in the middle of the episode

[00:09:59] and sometimes I will be just completely silent for seconds at a row

[00:10:13] and it's okay.

[00:10:18] There is this overwhelming feeling of freedom to sit here

[00:10:25] and speak to an international audience

[00:10:27] and just say whatever I want, whatever I come up with and not prepare.

[00:10:37] I mean this morning I just went out and I just sat down

[00:10:40] and I pressed record on my device and now I'm here with you.

[00:10:50] I get so many emails and DMs telling me how you use my podcast

[00:10:58] and again I'm not really able to answer all the emails and DMs

[00:11:07] but I try to and I read all of it, absolutely all of it.

[00:11:12] Some of you write consistently like every few days

[00:11:18] and I'm so glad it's proof of concept to me

[00:11:26] and I'm really glad to get to know you

[00:11:30] and some of you maybe just writing once telling me how you use your podcast.

[00:11:37] I've heard stories about people who listen to this podcast

[00:11:41] while going through a separation or being in the hospital for something

[00:11:55] or just commuting and then of course the major part of the listeners

[00:12:03] are listening to fall asleep with Henry Kvile trying to fall asleep

[00:12:06] and it's such an honor to be a part of your very personal routine.

[00:12:14] I can't emphasize enough the thrill and the joy that I feel

[00:12:23] when you tell me that I am actually a part of your bedtime routine.

[00:12:33] It's such an honor and I have to pinch myself sometimes

[00:12:42] just to make sure I'm not dreaming because I've had so many jobs

[00:12:50] well not so many different types of jobs

[00:12:53] mainly I've been working with acting and writing for the past 30 years or so

[00:13:00] but I mean I've done so much and this is by far

[00:13:08] the most enjoyable job I've ever had so thank you sleepy for being here with me

[00:13:19] and to given my life and for given my life purpose.

[00:13:26] I really want to thank you for that in particular

[00:13:31] that you're given my life some meaning you know

[00:13:35] right now I'm going through a very intense

[00:13:41] troublesome and exciting

[00:13:44] and scary and sad passage of my own life

[00:13:53] and to know that you're here given my life purpose is

[00:14:00] I mean it's such a great thing

[00:14:04] it's like the sun exploding in my chest when I think about

[00:14:08] what I get to do every day so again

[00:14:17] starting to sound like a broken record but again

[00:14:22] thank you from the bottom of my heart

[00:14:29] okay so I don't have any particular plan on what this episode's topic should be

[00:14:37] I mean I could talk about anything from green

[00:14:43] barbershop hats to transylvanian maids singing and dancing

[00:14:53] in the grand entrance of the castle

[00:14:56] which I think is a very good thing

[00:14:58] I mean transylvanian maids as you know are a very strong union connected group

[00:15:09] the transylvanian the transylvanian maid union is like

[00:15:14] it's so much stronger than any like screenwriters guild or whatever

[00:15:23] so I'm going to tell you a story about transylvanian maids

[00:15:33] and their very strong sense of connectedness and pride

[00:15:42] so first of all transylvanian maids are not just women

[00:15:46] it's a gender neutral job

[00:15:52] and as the name suggests it's about like housekeeping mostly

[00:16:02] and gardening and but mostly housekeeping

[00:16:05] and the transylvanian maids from now on I will just refer to them as the maids

[00:16:14] because that's what they are I mean I don't go around telling you that I'm Swedish

[00:16:19] like in the start of every sentence although I am

[00:16:25] I mean that fact doesn't change just because I don't mention it once in a while

[00:16:29] but in case you missed it I am from Sweden

[00:16:33] I live in Stockholm Sweden and I am not from here

[00:16:41] I am from a little place in Sweden called Fåland

[00:16:47] which is a small city with an old mine with an old copper mine

[00:16:56] that's well I don't think they still get copper from there

[00:17:01] but I have heard rumors that there's silver there now

[00:17:06] anyway it's like from the 15th century or something

[00:17:10] the mine and the legend has it that there was this buck

[00:17:16] who was out on the mountain and the buck was named Kåre

[00:17:21] and the buck scraped his horns against the rock and came home to his owner

[00:17:26] with the horns wearing this red reddish tint

[00:17:34] and the owner was like oh my god there's copper in the ground

[00:17:38] we need to harvest this before anyone else tells us

[00:17:41] and this copper mine in Fåland, Dalana Sweden

[00:17:48] was actually a part of this vast network in Dalana

[00:17:55] where it became some sort of an economic center

[00:18:00] and this huge economic power during a few hundred years

[00:18:04] but growing up there I never saw any traces of this

[00:18:10] I never saw the wealth

[00:18:16] it wasn't really distributed

[00:18:19] and when I was a kid the mine was about to close

[00:18:23] after hundreds of years of mining

[00:18:32] so ok but that's me

[00:18:35] and I'm from Sweden, did I mention that?

[00:18:38] did I mention that I'm from Sweden?

[00:18:41] I'm this little land exotic blue eyed boy from Sweden

[00:18:47] and I'm 49 years old

[00:18:51] yet I am still somewhat of a boy

[00:18:56] and that's, I've been talking about this extensively

[00:18:59] in another episode called Boy

[00:19:06] and it's, you can listen to that

[00:19:13] it's one of my more popular episodes

[00:19:16] so maybe that was the peak of my career

[00:19:20] as an international podcaster I don't know

[00:19:27] ok so before I start talking more about the Transylvanian maids

[00:19:34] and their very strong sense of connectedness to each other

[00:19:38] and their lore, you know, and their branch

[00:19:46] I want to tell you about my goals with this podcast

[00:19:53] my goals with this podcast is to reach one million listeners

[00:19:59] within a year

[00:20:01] and that's a very ambitious goal

[00:20:04] and if you have it in you I would really appreciate your help

[00:20:09] if you like this podcast tell your friends about it

[00:20:13] share it in social media

[00:20:14] write reviews on the platform where you listen

[00:20:20] that helps, every little bit helps

[00:20:22] and that is if you feel that it's worth your while

[00:20:27] I've decided to give this project a year

[00:20:30] I don't really need it economically because

[00:20:35] I have this very big Swedish podcast that

[00:20:40] keeps me alive, you know, keeps food coming

[00:20:44] but I am so excited about this

[00:20:49] and I really would like it to grow

[00:20:52] I would really like it to be like a part of this

[00:20:55] I would really like me to be a part of this huge community

[00:21:02] gathering around this very odd type of content

[00:21:05] where someone just talks without any really

[00:21:12] not preparing anything

[00:21:15] I don't have an agenda

[00:21:18] I mean even the so-called agenda to put you to sleep

[00:21:22] is not really an agenda

[00:21:24] because I don't really care

[00:21:27] I just want you to feel good

[00:21:30] I just want you to feel

[00:21:33] okay, you know

[00:21:35] that's my only thing

[00:21:38] that's my only goal, my only agenda

[00:21:41] but if I don't succeed

[00:21:45] that's okay too

[00:21:47] because I can't possibly think

[00:21:51] that I, little me

[00:21:54] could ever be able to do that to everyone

[00:21:59] so it's a strike of luck if I reach you right now

[00:22:03] and that's why I want to reach out to more people like you

[00:22:07] so my goal is to reach one million people

[00:22:10] listening to this podcast within a year

[00:22:13] from like two months ago, two months ago

[00:22:17] so say in May or June next year

[00:22:24] I'm going to make this convention thing

[00:22:31] intervention thing with myself where I ask myself

[00:22:33] is this really worth your while, is this really worth your time

[00:22:37] have you gotten anything out of it

[00:22:40] I mean in a personal way

[00:22:46] so that's why I keep telling you to write to me

[00:22:49] tell me about yourself, your day

[00:22:53] use cases of fall asleep with Hendrik

[00:22:58] okay, so

[00:23:02] that being said I'm now going to enter the realm

[00:23:07] of the Transylvanian maids and their questionable life choices

[00:23:14] because they really, they are really a bunch

[00:23:18] you know, it's not, they're not that many people

[00:23:22] it's around 200 people

[00:23:25] and the occupation is inherited

[00:23:29] so you don't get to choose it

[00:23:31] it's like royalty in a way

[00:23:35] you inherit this job from your mother or your father

[00:23:39] depending on which one of them had the occupation

[00:23:42] sometimes both parents have it

[00:23:46] I mean that's more of a rule than an exception

[00:23:49] because they are, it's a very

[00:23:54] it's a force of habit

[00:23:56] you know it's something that you really can't ignore

[00:24:01] growing up with a maid in your family

[00:24:05] a Transylvanian maid that is

[00:24:07] I would like to emphasize that a Transylvanian maid

[00:24:10] is not the same thing as

[00:24:13] like what you normally think of

[00:24:15] when you hear the word maid

[00:24:19] when you hear the word maid maybe you think about a servant

[00:24:24] someone who may or may not be

[00:24:29] in the care of a family with a room in the family house

[00:24:34] being a part of the family but still not

[00:24:37] ever really being a part of the family

[00:24:43] and maybe you think of inequality

[00:24:47] and oppression

[00:24:50] and an old way of living that's not really

[00:24:57] well it's not really

[00:24:59] it doesn't really do anything anymore

[00:25:04] but a Transylvanian maid in this made up case

[00:25:08] because I want to emphasize again that this

[00:25:10] the thing that I'm saying that this is a Transylvanian maid thing

[00:25:16] I don't know anything about Transylvania

[00:25:18] and this is not a comment on anything I've read or heard

[00:25:22] or think or believe

[00:25:24] so it's just random

[00:25:28] that I took the place of Transylvania

[00:25:31] and the occupation of maid

[00:25:33] but now here I am

[00:25:36] started out with talking about

[00:25:40] Transylvanian maids dancing in the hallway together

[00:25:43] so the Transylvanian maids are a very closely

[00:25:49] bounded together group

[00:25:53] that lives in a castle in Transylvania

[00:25:56] all 200 of them

[00:25:58] and they take turns being the ruler of the castle

[00:26:03] and it's very democratic

[00:26:07] you vote for someone to be this year's overmaid

[00:26:15] and then you take turns

[00:26:21] of being like suppliants

[00:26:24] what do you call it?

[00:26:25] someone who is like assistance to the overmaid

[00:26:31] so that everyone gets to be close to power

[00:26:34] but power itself is something that you're being voted into

[00:26:38] so every year the overmaid is trying to get re-elected

[00:26:44] but the overmaid can only be re-elected

[00:26:47] for 465 years in a row

[00:26:51] which is like in maid time

[00:26:54] it's a second really

[00:26:59] but if you and I were to enter this castle

[00:27:02] which is called Hekelbrikenos on Fefer's Lachanbachanbadan under sea

[00:27:08] then you would of course feel like it was actual

[00:27:14] because it's actual 465 years

[00:27:18] like real years with 365 days each

[00:27:27] so that's

[00:27:28] I mean it's a weird thing

[00:27:30] but then again being a maid is a weird thing

[00:27:35] it's really

[00:27:36] I mean when I think of maids

[00:27:39] I think of this

[00:27:41] it's always a woman of course

[00:27:42] they have a black dress with a white apron

[00:27:47] and maybe something white

[00:27:50] like this little hat on their head

[00:27:53] just to tell people their status

[00:27:56] but that's like a 1920s, 1800s, 1700s

[00:28:04] no 1900s century thing

[00:28:09] as you can tell my English like suddenly just drops

[00:28:13] and I don't find any word at all

[00:28:16] and that's where you can hear me say stuff like

[00:28:19] I taste good food

[00:28:22] mouth good food

[00:28:25] you know

[00:28:29] but I hope you'll excuse my endeavors in that matter

[00:28:33] sometimes I think I'm really flowing

[00:28:37] you know

[00:28:38] sometimes I surprise myself

[00:28:41] being able to improvise like this

[00:28:43] in my second language

[00:28:47] which I don't know fluently

[00:28:49] I need to think between every word

[00:28:52] and afterwards I'm like really exhausted

[00:28:55] because it's I use my brain in a new way

[00:29:00] doing this in English

[00:29:06] but I really enjoy it, I really do

[00:29:09] so well

[00:29:14] let's just say that you're a maid

[00:29:16] in this maid household and you get elected

[00:29:19] you have been doing this like election campaign

[00:29:24] for the last year

[00:29:25] if you're ever elected you need to campaign

[00:29:28] like for the whole year

[00:29:30] at the same time as you do your chores

[00:29:34] like being the boss

[00:29:36] the president of the castle, the president of the household

[00:29:40] and then you have this 199 other maids

[00:29:43] under you that perform tasks

[00:29:45] and maintenance and just keep up

[00:29:49] you know

[00:29:51] run the everyday business

[00:29:53] and you get to strategize

[00:29:55] and stake out the future for the whole group

[00:30:04] so in this castle

[00:30:06] Hekelbryken och som Feffer slaggen bak en baden and and er se

[00:30:09] there are 465 rooms

[00:30:13] each of the rooms are like

[00:30:15] very unique and personally

[00:30:19] decorated and furnished

[00:30:23] because every room

[00:30:25] regardless of there being

[00:30:28] a maid living there or not

[00:30:31] is like made for this particular person

[00:30:34] that lived 200 years ago

[00:30:38] so 200 years ago this group of maids

[00:30:43] started

[00:30:45] they got together and they formed this community of maids

[00:30:48] and they started this very democratic system

[00:30:52] where you vote for the overmaid

[00:30:55] each year

[00:30:58] and you

[00:31:01] so all of the rooms are like

[00:31:04] preserved from the original maid who lived there

[00:31:09] because in the beginning

[00:31:10] there were 465 maids

[00:31:14] and 465 years each

[00:31:17] mandate period

[00:31:21] and so the number 465 is the thing

[00:31:26] you really should take away from this episode

[00:31:28] because it's a very symbolic and meaningful number

[00:31:30] that you really really really should pay attention to

[00:31:34] if you want to listen to

[00:31:36] like this

[00:31:39] sad little podcast host from Sweden

[00:31:41] who doesn't really know what he's talking about

[00:31:43] then you should really really really

[00:31:46] and I can't emphasize this enough without

[00:31:50] knowing anything about anything

[00:31:52] you should really pay attention to the number 465

[00:31:56] because I don't know why

[00:31:59] and of course everything I say is a fantasy

[00:32:04] and you don't have to take anything I say seriously

[00:32:13] so how I sleepie

[00:32:18] are you still awake?

[00:32:21] I am

[00:32:23] and I have actually been known

[00:32:29] for falling asleep during my episodes

[00:32:32] from time to time

[00:32:33] I

[00:32:36] especially in the beginning in the Swedish version of this podcast

[00:32:39] I fell asleep during the episodes because

[00:32:42] I couldn't really keep my thoughts apart from dreaming

[00:32:45] because the process when I do this is

[00:32:48] sort of like I'm dreaming

[00:32:51] I just see things flowing through my brain

[00:32:56] and I tell them out loud

[00:32:59] and the hard part of doing this

[00:33:01] is to actually

[00:33:05] verbalize

[00:33:06] the images, feelings and thoughts that drift through my brain

[00:33:10] in real time

[00:33:13] because sometimes it changes

[00:33:16] extremely quickly

[00:33:18] and I can't really keep up

[00:33:20] and then I need to just talk about something

[00:33:22] like anything

[00:33:24] it may be not even from my own mind

[00:33:27] maybe it's just something I see

[00:33:29] for instance right now

[00:33:30] I'm looking at this curtain in the front of my door

[00:33:34] into my studio

[00:33:36] and it's like brownish

[00:33:39] sound isolating

[00:33:41] cloth

[00:33:43] and you know just to be able to

[00:33:48] avoid falling down into the abyss

[00:33:51] that is sleep

[00:33:52] and don't run off now

[00:33:56] yelling from the top of a tower that

[00:34:00] this guy, this Swedish guy

[00:34:02] is comparing sleep to an abyss

[00:34:05] and I don't feel like sleeping anymore

[00:34:07] because that scared the living crap out of me

[00:34:09] I just want to say that

[00:34:12] well, abysses are real

[00:34:15] you are real

[00:34:17] the universe is real

[00:34:18] everything you know is real

[00:34:22] in one way or another

[00:34:24] and why wouldn't you be able to

[00:34:27] get along for just some

[00:34:30] short period of time

[00:34:32] so if you just compare yourself

[00:34:35] standing next to an abyss

[00:34:36] if you just compare yourself

[00:34:40] by the abyss

[00:34:41] with yourself comfortable in the bed

[00:34:44] surrounded by loved ones

[00:34:48] both of the images are equally true

[00:34:51] because you are indeed

[00:34:53] next to an abyss

[00:34:54] in so many aspects of that

[00:34:57] image

[00:34:58] and you are indeed comfortable and safe

[00:35:01] and we can be all of that at the same time

[00:35:04] and I love that about life

[00:35:08] that there's so many things going on at once

[00:35:10] so

[00:35:18] right now the overmade is called

[00:35:21] Delilah

[00:35:23] and Delilah is

[00:35:25] a 68 year old woman

[00:35:31] with dark skin

[00:35:33] brown eyes

[00:35:35] curly hair

[00:35:37] and

[00:35:40] a nose ring

[00:35:43] and if you think that the maids

[00:35:45] in this castle have like made costumes and such

[00:35:48] well it's true in a way

[00:35:51] because the under maids

[00:35:53] because this is a very hierarchical

[00:35:56] what do you call it? Hierarchy

[00:35:59] it's a

[00:36:00] oh god sometimes

[00:36:05] hierarchical

[00:36:07] hierarchy

[00:36:09] hierarchical

[00:36:09] well it's a status

[00:36:12] in post society

[00:36:15] but it's always changing

[00:36:17] so under made

[00:36:19] you're only an under made for like

[00:36:22] the first

[00:36:24] 90 days

[00:36:26] and then you get to be a maid, a regular maid

[00:36:28] and within the maid community you circulate

[00:36:30] doing different businesses

[00:36:31] and the only reason that you're an under made

[00:36:34] is that you're under paid

[00:36:36] so an under paid under made

[00:36:38] is

[00:36:41] really

[00:36:44] so that you get humble when you go to baid

[00:36:48] an under paid under made is humble

[00:36:51] when it goes to baid

[00:36:54] and I mean bed

[00:36:55] but I just said baid because it was supposed to rhyme

[00:37:04] oh god

[00:37:09] so yeah

[00:37:12] so everything circulates

[00:37:16] but the Lila

[00:37:17] she has been

[00:37:20] like so the under maids

[00:37:22] they have real actual maid costumes

[00:37:24] like you would recognize in any

[00:37:27] like dress up party thing

[00:37:30] but as soon as you become a regular maid

[00:37:33] or even an over made

[00:37:34] or like this assistant

[00:37:36] you get to dress like

[00:37:39] whatever you want in any way

[00:37:41] your shape you want

[00:37:42] so the Lila is

[00:37:44] very confident and she's been the over made

[00:37:49] for 16 years now

[00:37:51] which is not very long

[00:37:53] considering you can sit for

[00:37:55] 465 years

[00:37:57] but then again it's maids years

[00:37:59] so for maids

[00:38:00] that is like just a few days

[00:38:04] it means that the Lila

[00:38:06] is living a very slow life

[00:38:10] and all of the other maids as well

[00:38:12] well maybe the under maids are a bit faster

[00:38:18] that's just because they have more to do

[00:38:21] because the under maids are doing

[00:38:23] much of the groundwork

[00:38:25] really

[00:38:26] the messy things

[00:38:28] and that's unfair

[00:38:30] but the good thing is that

[00:38:31] you just have a limited time doing that

[00:38:34] and then there are new maids being recruited

[00:38:37] as the old ones

[00:38:39] get old and die

[00:38:43] and

[00:38:45] as it should you know

[00:38:47] and that's equally

[00:38:49] comforting to me

[00:38:51] for me to know

[00:38:53] that there is an order of things

[00:38:55] and that I'm a part of it

[00:38:57] and I really love that

[00:39:00] one day there will be this

[00:39:02] very young

[00:39:04] ambitious

[00:39:07] flaming person

[00:39:08] and I will look at this person

[00:39:10] and I will

[00:39:12] tell myself that

[00:39:14] this is the one

[00:39:16] who should be doing what I do now

[00:39:19] and

[00:39:20] then I will say

[00:39:21] do you want to do this

[00:39:23] with your life

[00:39:24] and then that person in an ideal world

[00:39:27] would say yes that would be an honor

[00:39:29] and then I would say

[00:39:31] then go do it

[00:39:32] and then I would cease you know

[00:39:37] I don't have any illusions of

[00:39:39] someone else taking over my line of work

[00:39:42] I was talking about it

[00:39:44] in a more symbolic way

[00:39:45] and of course this has to do with having a child

[00:39:48] you know that's really what it's all about

[00:39:53] having a child is like being

[00:39:55] the bow that shoots the arrow

[00:39:58] so as soon as the arrow is out in the air

[00:40:00] the bow is sort of meaningless

[00:40:03] the only difference is that

[00:40:05] me as the bow

[00:40:06] I'm also a human

[00:40:08] and I have this

[00:40:11] time left

[00:40:12] as my daughter grows up

[00:40:16] I now have like

[00:40:18] this time

[00:40:20] that I really don't know what to do with

[00:40:22] and I want to fill it with purpose

[00:40:25] I really want to fill it with

[00:40:31] purpose

[00:40:35] carrying and being carried

[00:40:40] like

[00:40:42] saying hi to someone

[00:40:44] you know

[00:40:45] pretending not to know them

[00:40:49] just like a game

[00:40:50] like a very exciting game

[00:41:00] okay sorry I'm

[00:41:03] spacing out

[00:41:07] so

[00:41:08] Delilah is living a very slow life

[00:41:10] that's where I left you

[00:41:13] she's

[00:41:17] like

[00:41:18] if you can imagine like this Greenland whale

[00:41:21] that's been swimming in the ocean since the

[00:41:25] 1600s

[00:41:27] and

[00:41:28] well that's true because they get really old

[00:41:32] I mean there are Greenland whales

[00:41:35] right now who lived at the same time as

[00:41:40] William Shakespeare

[00:41:44] who've seen like

[00:41:46] almost any war in modern history

[00:41:49] will not seen because they don't see

[00:41:52] like that they are in

[00:41:54] deep waters and they don't pay any attention to what we as

[00:41:58] the human community are doing

[00:42:01] and that's a good thing I guess because I can't imagine them

[00:42:05] living this long

[00:42:06] if they were caught up in our

[00:42:09] messy endeavors

[00:42:16] but that's Delilah for you

[00:42:18] she's just

[00:42:20] this slow swimming Greenland whale

[00:42:23] sitting in her overmade office

[00:42:27] meditating like constantly

[00:42:29] not in the way you would expect

[00:42:32] like legs crossed

[00:42:34] hands on your knees

[00:42:35] eyes closed

[00:42:38] on a pillow on the ground

[00:42:40] she's meditating like

[00:42:42] she's constantly aware

[00:42:47] and I mean that's really the aim of

[00:42:50] meditating as far as I

[00:42:52] as far as I'm concerned

[00:42:55] I don't even know what I'm talking about right now

[00:42:58] I've been meditating for a year

[00:43:00] and I'm totally caught up in it

[00:43:02] and I love it the idea of being aware

[00:43:07] I love the idea of awareness being this

[00:43:12] ungripable space

[00:43:14] within and outside

[00:43:16] that I can just dwell in

[00:43:19] that I can just activate

[00:43:23] knowledge of

[00:43:26] but I don't really know

[00:43:27] but Delilah do

[00:43:29] she's such a great meditator

[00:43:32] and she's come to this point where she doesn't

[00:43:34] really need to sit or lie down

[00:43:37] and close her eyes and focus on her breathing

[00:43:40] and stuff like that because that's all objects of meditation

[00:43:43] and anything can be an object

[00:43:46] of meditation

[00:43:49] so she's focusing on her feelings

[00:43:52] and she lets her feelings

[00:43:54] whatever character the feeling is like

[00:43:58] shaped like

[00:44:00] and

[00:44:02] she's focusing and making her

[00:44:05] current emotion

[00:44:07] the anchor of her

[00:44:10] constant 24-7 meditation

[00:44:12] so this doesn't mean that she's not

[00:44:19] involved in the castles everyday business

[00:44:23] this doesn't mean that she's in a disecluded room

[00:44:27] behind a curtain sitting on the floor just breathing

[00:44:30] she's active

[00:44:32] but yeah because you can be

[00:44:35] you can be active while meditating

[00:44:40] it's something of a myth that you

[00:44:42] just have to sit like legs crossed and just

[00:44:47] and like surround yourself with

[00:44:51] madrists

[00:44:53] cozy soft things just to get away from the world

[00:44:56] it helps when you're not

[00:45:00] when you're learning how to meditate

[00:45:02] but the goal really is at least for me

[00:45:06] and other meditators is

[00:45:10] like this should be a constant

[00:45:13] ongoing thing where you are aware

[00:45:16] of what's happening at every given moment

[00:45:19] and you don't

[00:45:21] you get to be more agile in your mind

[00:45:24] you can choose what you want to connect with

[00:45:27] what you want to attach yourself to

[00:45:33] because

[00:45:35] there are stuff in the world that you really

[00:45:38] want to attach yourself to

[00:45:39] like for instance there's this one recurring

[00:45:42] feeling in me right now

[00:45:43] every morning when I wake up

[00:45:45] I am overwhelmed by that feeling

[00:45:49] and I get to choose

[00:45:52] to attach to it

[00:45:55] and that's a powerful thing to choose

[00:45:58] because I now know that I can choose

[00:46:01] what feeling I want to attach to

[00:46:03] sometimes it's really hard not to

[00:46:06] attach to stuff

[00:46:08] but this particular feeling

[00:46:10] it's really a magical thing

[00:46:14] to just allow yourself

[00:46:18] to ride that wagon

[00:46:20] to ride that roller coaster for a while

[00:46:26] and then you get to step off the roller coaster

[00:46:29] and you go downstairs and you have coffee

[00:46:32] and life is so beautiful

[00:46:37] because you're in control of

[00:46:39] what you want to engage in

[00:46:43] and I'm not talking about

[00:46:45] like putting up walls and

[00:46:47] forbidding yourself to feel stuff

[00:46:49] because you can't

[00:46:50] you can't forbid yourself from

[00:46:53] thinking or feeling stuff

[00:46:55] well you can try but it'll hurt you

[00:46:59] I have tried for so many years of my life

[00:47:04] there are so many things

[00:47:05] that I've just left unnoticed

[00:47:09] or that I didn't want to look at

[00:47:11] because the hurt was too big

[00:47:14] the hurt was too great

[00:47:16] and I told myself

[00:47:18] that if I just

[00:47:21] rip the door

[00:47:24] put brick

[00:47:26] in front of it

[00:47:28] that it would go away

[00:47:32] but it's, I mean feelings and thoughts are

[00:47:38] crucibly astonishing

[00:47:39] astonishing powerful things

[00:47:42] that can break down almost any wall

[00:47:46] and that Delilah knows

[00:47:48] she's sitting in her office

[00:47:51] and she's out with the other maids

[00:47:53] doing stuff

[00:47:56] they play a lot

[00:47:57] and now I'm going to get to the part

[00:48:00] where they're dancing in the hallway

[00:48:03] so they have this dance

[00:48:05] every morning the maids

[00:48:07] put on their clothes

[00:48:10] and they join

[00:48:11] together in the great atrium

[00:48:14] down in the hall

[00:48:15] and there's this pool

[00:48:19] this very shallow pool

[00:48:21] in the atrium

[00:48:23] that with a small

[00:48:25] very soft

[00:48:29] silent fountain

[00:48:33] in the middle

[00:48:35] which just

[00:48:38] blurs water

[00:48:39] like a centimeter up

[00:48:41] so it's just a little

[00:48:43] a small very weak splashing sound from this

[00:48:47] and the only thing it really does is that

[00:48:50] it provides like this some sort of

[00:48:53] presence in this very

[00:48:55] big atrium

[00:48:57] which otherwise would be I'm afraid

[00:48:59] a bit overwhelming

[00:49:01] I think because it's stone

[00:49:03] stone

[00:49:06] vaults you know around it

[00:49:11] so

[00:49:14] there the maids gather

[00:49:16] every morning and they do the morning dance

[00:49:18] and that was what I was referring to

[00:49:20] when talking about

[00:49:23] maids dancing in the hallway

[00:49:26] and they dance like

[00:49:28] at first they're very stiff

[00:49:32] because you're always very stiff in the morning

[00:49:34] regardless of age and form

[00:49:37] so they need to stretch

[00:49:40] so they bend forward and

[00:49:42] make their

[00:49:44] spines like

[00:49:47] stretch out

[00:49:50] unfold you know

[00:49:53] and then they stretch backwards

[00:49:55] and then there's always this

[00:49:59] creaking sound

[00:50:00] from their bones when doing that

[00:50:02] and then they start to dance

[00:50:05] so they

[00:50:06] hook arms

[00:50:10] sorry what do you call this

[00:50:11] when you take

[00:50:14] when you take

[00:50:15] each other under the arm like

[00:50:18] you make a

[00:50:18] some sort of a hook with your arm and you hook that hook into

[00:50:22] you attach that hook

[00:50:24] into the other person's

[00:50:26] arm hook and then you dance

[00:50:28] around you know

[00:50:30] and the music is like

[00:50:32] it's very weird

[00:50:36] mish mash

[00:50:38] between

[00:50:40] Irish folk music

[00:50:41] and death metal

[00:50:44] like Texas Death Metal

[00:50:47] if there is such a thing

[00:50:49] and if you're

[00:50:53] please just share with me

[00:50:56] some Texas Death Metal bands

[00:50:58] if you have it in you

[00:50:59] if you know some Texas Death Metal bands

[00:51:03] then please just

[00:51:05] tell me about it

[00:51:08] not because I like it

[00:51:10] but because I want to give you

[00:51:12] jobs and

[00:51:14] tasks sometimes

[00:51:15] in this podcast because I really

[00:51:17] enjoy making people

[00:51:20] do random stuff

[00:51:23] okay so now I'm going to give you

[00:51:25] this weird

[00:51:27] random mission

[00:51:30] I want to

[00:51:31] this only applies if you have someone

[00:51:33] in bed with you

[00:51:36] and

[00:51:36] I don't want you to do anything that

[00:51:39] makes other make

[00:51:40] someone else upset or sad

[00:51:42] or whatever so

[00:51:44] do this only if you can

[00:51:47] with good conscience

[00:51:48] and your sense of morality

[00:51:51] intact but I want you

[00:51:53] to turn to that person if someone

[00:51:55] is next to you either in bed or in

[00:51:57] like waking life environment

[00:51:59] somewhere and I want

[00:52:00] you to like get their

[00:52:02] attention in some way

[00:52:04] and when you have their attention

[00:52:06] I want you to stare at them

[00:52:08] like really seriously

[00:52:10] stare at them

[00:52:11] not in a frightening way but

[00:52:15] like this like you really

[00:52:16] mean business and then I want

[00:52:18] you to say with your

[00:52:20] most serious voice

[00:52:23] my mother is

[00:52:25] a burglar from Boston

[00:52:29] I mean don't try to

[00:52:32] analyze this because there is no

[00:52:34] underlying thought

[00:52:36] I just

[00:52:37] tried to come up with the most

[00:52:39] sensible thing I could ever imagine

[00:52:42] but the

[00:52:43] fun thing about this is

[00:52:45] that you create

[00:52:47] like some sort of dissonance

[00:52:49] in the world when you do this

[00:52:51] it's not a dangerous dissonance

[00:52:53] it doesn't hurt anyone

[00:52:55] it's just confusing

[00:52:57] and I really think we need

[00:53:00] confusing things

[00:53:01] in the world

[00:53:04] because everything is so

[00:53:06] thought through I mean

[00:53:07] at least on the surface because

[00:53:10] really no one ever

[00:53:11] is truly composed

[00:53:14] no one ever

[00:53:16] really has control

[00:53:17] it's just that we go around

[00:53:19] and we pretend to have control

[00:53:22] we pretend to be

[00:53:24] in control and to understand

[00:53:26] everything that's going on

[00:53:28] around us which is like

[00:53:29] so ridiculous that we still

[00:53:32] think

[00:53:34] with everything we know

[00:53:36] about the universe

[00:53:38] and with everything we know

[00:53:39] that we definitely don't have any clue about

[00:53:42] I mean that's the main

[00:53:44] thing of living today

[00:53:45] that we know so much

[00:53:47] but yet what we really know

[00:53:51] is that we really don't know anything

[00:53:54] and that's a

[00:53:55] difference

[00:53:57] from like

[00:53:59] 200 years ago because

[00:54:01] by then people thought that

[00:54:03] they really had all of it figured out

[00:54:06] but now we know that we don't

[00:54:09] and we may never

[00:54:11] have everything

[00:54:13] figured out so that's why

[00:54:16] I really like

[00:54:17] small stuff of

[00:54:19] confusion being created

[00:54:22] by good people

[00:54:24] without any intention

[00:54:25] of harm

[00:54:27] just looking at someone

[00:54:30] and saying that weird

[00:54:31] nonsensical thing

[00:54:33] that your mother is a burglar from Boston

[00:54:36] it's fun because

[00:54:39] Boston and burglar is

[00:54:41] two good words to put together

[00:54:43] because they both start with a B

[00:54:45] so it's an easy thing

[00:54:47] and yet it's so specific

[00:54:50] and why would you

[00:54:51] want to tell someone that your mother

[00:54:53] is a burglar

[00:54:54] and why is it important that she's from Boston

[00:54:57] you know

[00:54:59] and

[00:55:00] what even is a burglar

[00:55:02] I mean

[00:55:05] is it something that

[00:55:08] is it an occupation

[00:55:10] or has she just

[00:55:12] broke into someone's house like once

[00:55:14] and stole like this

[00:55:16] handkerchief

[00:55:19] or what do you call it

[00:55:21] this thing

[00:55:23] that you wipe your nose with

[00:55:24] nose

[00:55:27] nose I think it's called

[00:55:29] Henry please try

[00:55:30] and speak proper English because

[00:55:33] your listeners will abandon

[00:55:35] you I recently got

[00:55:39] a few new listeners from India

[00:55:40] hello

[00:55:41] welcome to my podcast by the way

[00:55:45] India is

[00:55:46] a very exciting country and

[00:55:48] I have thought about

[00:55:51] like reaching out

[00:55:53] to more people in India

[00:55:56] because

[00:55:57] there is this

[00:56:00] I get

[00:56:01] more and more

[00:56:04] also followers

[00:56:05] from India so I guess

[00:56:07] it's just this

[00:56:10] maybe I

[00:56:13] maybe there's a place for fall asleep

[00:56:15] with Henry there so thank you

[00:56:17] for being here and thank you

[00:56:19] for being here everyone from the States

[00:56:21] because

[00:56:23] the greatest

[00:56:25] number of you are so far

[00:56:27] from the States

[00:56:28] and England and Canada

[00:56:31] and then a few of you from

[00:56:33] Europe and I love you all

[00:56:37] so

[00:56:40] I well this was

[00:56:42] about to be about the Transylvanian

[00:56:44] maids dancing in the hallway

[00:56:45] and I guess I've reached that

[00:56:49] I don't have there is no morality

[00:56:51] to this story

[00:56:55] there is no

[00:56:56] so that's why you never should wear

[00:56:59] a hat during

[00:57:01] pizza hour or something like that

[00:57:04] there is no

[00:57:07] moral to the story

[00:57:09] the only thing I want to want you to take

[00:57:13] with you

[00:57:14] from this event

[00:57:17] is that

[00:57:20] what really matters you know

[00:57:25] we're on this spinning

[00:57:27] rock

[00:57:31] we don't know why

[00:57:35] we really have no clue even

[00:57:37] what this

[00:57:39] what we call existence

[00:57:41] really is

[00:57:42] we can't see outside of it

[00:57:45] it's just here

[00:57:47] that's all we have

[00:57:49] and the space

[00:57:51] around us is expanding in

[00:57:53] an ever accelerating

[00:57:55] rate

[00:57:55] and we don't know why that is either

[00:57:58] why does the rate

[00:58:00] of the expansion accelerate

[00:58:03] why does

[00:58:05] distant galaxies

[00:58:07] move away from us

[00:58:08] in a speed

[00:58:10] like in relation to us

[00:58:12] that even succeeds light

[00:58:16] I'm not saying that they are actually

[00:58:18] moving faster than light because nothing

[00:58:20] can really I guess

[00:58:22] but

[00:58:25] in relation to us

[00:58:27] their speed

[00:58:29] related to us is

[00:58:31] like

[00:58:32] double the light or something

[00:58:35] and why is that

[00:58:37] we don't know

[00:58:39] so you can feel

[00:58:41] scared or small

[00:58:42] or yeah

[00:58:48] the wind the world can spin

[00:58:50] around you

[00:58:52] when you think about those things

[00:58:53] but you can also choose to just say

[00:58:58] okay

[00:58:59] okay world

[00:59:03] I don't know

[00:59:06] what this is

[00:59:08] I don't know what the purpose

[00:59:10] is or if there even is one

[00:59:13] probably not really

[00:59:15] at least not in a

[00:59:16] sense that I

[00:59:18] put in the word

[00:59:21] purpose

[00:59:24] okay maybe there isn't

[00:59:27] a point

[00:59:29] or maybe I just misjudged

[00:59:31] the whole meaning of the word point

[00:59:33] in this context

[00:59:36] maybe

[00:59:36] there's just now

[00:59:38] and maybe there's just

[00:59:41] aware

[00:59:42] you know

[00:59:43] I'm sitting in a chair

[00:59:45] talking to this person that I don't know

[00:59:48] on the other side of the world

[00:59:50] and I

[00:59:53] don't know anything else about

[00:59:57] why or where

[00:59:58] or

[01:00:00] how the only thing I know

[01:00:04] is

[01:00:06] I experience this

[01:00:10] and coffee is really good

[01:00:12] and pizza is really good

[01:00:15] and

[01:00:17] love

[01:00:18] is really great

[01:00:21] and

[01:00:24] you sleepy

[01:00:26] you are the best of them all

[01:00:29] good night